With trembling fingers, he touched my face. “Real?”
I nodded. “Yeah, baby, real. Come here, come lie in bed with me.”
Wordlessly, he obeyed, following me as I lay back on the sheets. I turned on my side to face him, tracing my fingers through his thick, chestnut hair and marveling at how he trembled and shivered beneath my touch.
“We need to talk about what happened that day,” I murmured, sliding up closer to him so our naked bodies were flush against one another.
He sighed and seemed to relax at the contact, encouraging me to continue to card my fingers through his hair as I spoke.
“Why do you think I used the NeuroExtractor on myself that day, baby?”
He didn’t hesitate.
“Because Jay was the reason you were trapped there. He lured you into your own fucking prison and…. I know I should have let you leave. It’s my fault you got dragged into all my baggage… but I thought… I thought you wanted to stay. I thought youwantedme…” He choked, and tears were streaming freely down his face into the sheets. “But… I get why you did it. If you forgot about Jay and everything he was to you, they would have no reason to keep you there. It was your ticket out.”
My heart broke as I realized he really believed that.
“Baby, no. That’s not why I did it. I tried to tell you when it was happening, but I don’t think you heard me. You were pretty upset.”
He just stared at me, looking broken and devoid of any hope.
I sighed, stroking the side of his face tenderly.
“They were using my love for you as a bargaining chip, baby. They knew that as long as they had you, they could get me to do anything they wanted. I couldn’t let them hurt you to manipulate me. I thought if I forgot you, it would save you. All… all I ever cared about was saving you, baby. It never had anything to do with me.”
His lip trembled, and he frowned as he processed what I’d said.
“I couldn’t let them hurt you. It kills me that they did it anyway, and I forgot you for no reason. I’m so fucking sorry, Jay. I really thought I was doing the right thing at the time. Please forgive me for forgetting you. I never wanted to do it.”
His cheeks flooded with another wave of silent tears, and he reached out to stroke my face, mirroring the way I was tracing my fingers over his.
“You cursed again.”
I chuckled softly. “Yeah, I guess I did.”
He smirked for a moment, and my heart soared at that tiny victory.
He slid his hand down my side and hooked his fingers around the back of my knee, pulling my leg up and over his hip until his cock was sliding against my slick crease.
“You really didn’t want to forget Jay? Even though he’s the reason… The reason they wanted to hurt you?” he asked, sounding small and young.
My heart cracked in my chest at how vulnerable he looked.
“No, baby, of course I didn’t want to forget Jay. I didn’t want to forgetyou.”
He wrapped his arms around me and tugged me even closer, rocking his hips back and forth, causing his cock to slide in and out from between my legs.
“I haven’t wanted to be Jay for a long time,” he rasped, and I kissed him, swallowing back another wave of tears.
“Iwant you to be Jay. I want you to be Jay, and I want to be Milo, because Milo and Jay belong together, and they never should have had to be apart in the first place.”
He stared at me from inches away, the steady rocking increasing slightly in pace. He wrapped his hand tenderly around my cock and gave me a long, lazy stroke, causing me to catch my breath.
“You said you loved Jay before you forgot him…” he murmured, looking at me like I had the power to destroy him with nothing but a single word. “Was that real?”
I tilted my hips on his next thrust, notching the tip of his cock against my hole, and his fingers dug into my hips as I curled my leg around him, urging him forward.
“I said I lovedyou,baby.” I gasped as I wiggled slightly until the tip of his cock breached me. Tugging him with me, I rolled onto my back, and he groaned softly in response to the sudden shift of positions.
