“Fuuuucckkkkk…”he moaned, and I shuddered as the taste of him exploded across my tongue.
He tasted like soap and sex, and I suddenly couldn’t get enough.
Working my tongue into his hole, I spread him wider, sucking, kissing, and licking until he was whimpering and puffing out tiny littlethank yous,just like I’d asked.
“You like that, baby?” I whispered, pulling back and reaching for the bottle of lube sitting on the end table.
“You know I do, fuck, Shemhazai… I’ve been wanting this since fucking Yule…”
Feeling a stab of guilt that I’d made him wait so long, I gave his hole another thorough kiss before squirting a generous amount of lube directly on it.
“Yeah? You’ve been wanting me to play with this perfect, tight little ass?” I purred, losing myself in the sounds he made as I pressed two fingers against his slick entrance. I rubbed firmly a few times before slowly sinking my fingers into him.
“Yes!Baby—that’s…”
He was fully rocking his hips back into me now, fucking himself on my hand. I watched my fingers disappear into his asshole over and over, mymind suddenly so lust drunk I could barely remember why I’d been afraid to do this in the first place.
“Give me more, Shemhazai… I need more, baby. You make me fuckingcrazy,do you know that?” he panted, his fists clutching the sheets by his head.
“Let me open you a bit more first,” I muttered, hesitant to force my way into him like I did the first time I fucked him. I wanted this to be all pleasure, but he was making it fuckinghard.
“Fuckthat, just put your dick in me. I want you to fuck the shit out of me, Shemhazai.Please.”
I groaned as he begged me, and the sadist in me made me want to make him wait, but that wasn’t the point of tonight.
Tonight, I wanted to give Gabriel what he wanted.
There had been so many times I’d hurt him.
So many times, I’d pushed him away.
I’d told him I didn’t want him.
I’d told him I didn’t care about him.
I hadn’t been able to say it back when he told me he was in love with me…
There were so many mistakes I’d made that I wished I could go back and change.
I couldn’t.
I couldn’t go back in time and take those things back; all I could do was try to make up for it now.
I wanted him to see that I could be someone worthy of being his partner.
More than that.
I wanted to prove tomyselfthat I could be more… That I could be better than what Raziel had made me.
I was going to give Gabriel what he wanted, but I wanted to look at him while I did it.
I didn’t want to hide from us anymore, and I didn’t want to allow my fear to stand between everything we could be.
So, I pulled my fingers out of him and pressed him gently on the side of his hip.
“Are you able to lie on your back?” I asked, wanting to be mindful of his healing wounds.
He rolled over immediately, spreading his legs wide and stroking his massive, swollen cock as he stared up at me.