I glanced at Riddick, whose jaw was clenched so tightly I could see the muscles in his cheek fluttering.
“Hey, they’re gone,” I whispered, reaching up to stroke his face. He jumped at my touch as if he’d forgotten for a moment that I was standing there. When he looked at me, my heart skipped a beat.
“Riddick… Are you going to tell me what’s going on?” I asked, and he closed his eyes, pinching the bridge of his nose in exasperation.
“I think… my time is up.”
Iwas torn. Half of me wanted to just wrap myself up in Finn and savor everyfuckingsecond with him, while the other half felt like it might be better to just end things now.
He peppered me with questions all night as I made him dinner. When it came time to go to bed, he tried to initiate sex, but I just couldn’t fucking do it.
It feltwrong.
It felt like I was lying to him.
And I was…lyingto him.
I had been this whole time.
I thought I would have had more time to finish training him and then tell him on my own. Onmyterms. But now that Kai and Jet were here, I knew the truth would come out one way or another. I was honestly really lucky it hadn’t already.
Almost every time he came back from a shift at Sharkies, I waited on pins and needles to see if someone had mentioned my name in relation to Jake’s.
Every time Finn walked in and smiled at me – popping those dimples the same way he always did – I knew I’d been gifted another day in the warmth of his love. It always felt like a weight was being lifted off my chest.
The relief was short-lived, however, as I knew it was only a matter of time.
Iknewit would be better coming from me… but…
Whenever I tried to work up the courage to tell him, the words died on my tongue.
Once I told him, it would be over.
And despite knowing it made me a weak, pathetic piece of shit… I wasn’treadyfor it to be over.
So, instead of telling him, I held him and stroked his hair until he fell asleep, basking in the warmth of his soft skin and his thick, silky hair.
“I love you. I love you, baby, and I’m so, so sorry,”I whispered into his sleeping ears, hoping he would carry those words with him long after he’d left me.
Riddick had been weird all night after his old buddies had come by our place. He wouldn’t talk to me, and it left me feeling really uneasy. What made things worse was he wasn’t in the house when I woke up the next morning.
Had to run out to take care of some things.
See you when you get home from work xx
I frowned. Riddick rarely ran out to ‘take care of things.’If we needed stuff, he usually sent me since he had a huge aversion to going into town. I didn’t even know where he’d been living before we got together. Whenever I asked him about it, he’d always give me some stupid, flirty answer.
‘Was living in purgatory ‘till I met you, baby boy.’
‘What do you mean? I’ve always been here, waiting for you.’ Wink.
It hadn’t bothered me at the time, but now I was starting to get freaked out. Something weird was going on, and the amount of nausea I was dealing with over it wasnotfucking cool.
I went through the motions of my morning workout on my own, hoping the exercise would help with the strange churning sensation I was experiencing in my gut.
It didn’t.
I texted Turtle to see if he wanted to meet up to kill some time before my shift, and he came to pick me up in Blake’s car, which just put me in a shittier mood.
