No one else had ever been inside Ryan like this. Just me.
A burning sensation welled behind my eyes at the realization that while sex for me had always been treated like a basic need, this was something extremely special for Ryan, and I wasso fucking honoredthat he had chosen me to experience it with him for the first time.
That coupled with the fact that this was special for me, too.
This was also my first time, in a way.
It was my first time having sex with someone I was in love with, and the moment I realized that, I began to shake.
Awareness seeped back into Ryan’s stunned gaze, and he wrapped his legs around my hips, urging me closer.
“You okay, baby?” I whispered, and he threaded his fingers around the back of my neck. Tugging my hair as he pulled my forehead to rest against his.
He swallowed thickly and nodded.
“Yeah. Go deeper. I want more.” He nipped my lips and licked and sucked at my lip ring as I allowed myself to slip deeper into his scorching hot channel.
“Fuck baby, you’re so tight. You feel like fuckingheaven,”I murmured, barely even registering the words as they left my mouth.
Ryan’s dick surged between us as the head of my cock squeezed past his prostate. He let out a high-keened wail, and his entire body locked up as pleasure rolled through him.
I pinched the base of his dick again, just in time to keep him from exploding.
“Not yet, baby, not yet…” I rasped, and he whimpered beneath me, his cock leaking a steady stream of cum as if he were experiencing a slow and constant state of release.
After another moment of excruciatingly slow movement, I bottomed out.
My hips pressed into his ass cheeks as I fully settled into him, and I dropped kiss after kiss on his face.
“Cal…” he whined, and as much as I was dying to pull back out and slam back into his sweet heat, I forced myself to stay completely still so he could adjust to me being inside him.
I held myself over him on my elbows, stroking his ginger hair out of his gorgeous, brandy eyes, and took a moment to appreciate the fact thatI was inside Ryan Fairview.
“Cal…” he repeated, and I brushed a soft kiss against his lips.
“Yeah, baby? You alright?” I asked, my voice rough and raw.
He nodded, his eyes half closed and dark with lust.
“Yeah, I just… I love having you inside of me.”
So many overwhelming emotions swelled through my chest as he looked up at me with those big, trusting eyes. His cheeks were flushed, and he was clenched around me so tightly that I never wanted to pull out.
I just wanted to live inside him forever.
Suddenly, my mouth was moving, and I was saying things before my brain even caught up to what my heart wanted.
“Ryan, I—” I stopped myself and closed my eyes, biting back the words that I always seemed to say but never seemed to be returned.
I couldn’t say them now. Who the fuck said that shit to someone when they were balls deep in them for the first time?
Feeling stupid and vulnerable, I let out a breath just as Ryan’s fingers brushed gently across my cheek.
“What is it?” he whispered, grazing his thumb tenderly over my jawbone.
“Nothing, it’s stupid,” I croaked.
“Tell me.”
