Have you ever fantasized about surrendering control completely during a sexual encounter?
Another “Yes.”
Have you ever fantasized about being observed during sexual activity?
My face heated as I remembered Kiernan’s focus on us last night, the way he’d tracked every reaction, every gasp. I marked “Yes” again.
The questions continued, each one probing deeper. Some were easy—clear “nos” that required zero thought.Others made me pause, examining desires I’d never acknowledged.
Have you ever fantasized about being praised for obedience?
The memory of Kiernan’s words rose unbidden.Good girl.I couldn’t remember if he’d actually said that or if I’d imagined it, but either way, the thought made me melt, made me want to earn more of them.
I marked “Yes.”
Across the table, Oliver’s pen scratched in stops and starts.
Every so often, his breath caught. Or mine did.
Have you ever fantasized about submission to multiple partners?
Have you ever fantasized about witnessing your partner being with someone else?
Have you ever fantasized about seeing your partner with someone of the same sex?
I paused on that one. Before last night, it had never occurred to me. Many of the things in this questionnaire hadn’t. But the idea of seeing Kiernan and Oliver together sent desire coiling tight inside me.
I marked “Curious,” then changed my answer to “Yes.”
The questions went on and on—pages of them. By the time I reached the end of the first section, my mind was spinning. But beneath the overwhelm, clarity emerged.
When I looked up, Oliver was studying me.
“I’m on page six.”
“I’m on page six too,” I responded.
“It’s a lot.”
“It is.”
Oliver closed his journal and stared into space.
“Done?” I asked.
“Done.”
“How do you feel?”
He laughed—a short, sharp sound that held no humor. “Like I took an exam I didn’t study for. And also, like I might have passed it anyway.”
I understood. The same strange sense of accomplishment lived in my own chest, alongside the lingering uncertainty.
“What now?” Oliver asked.
“We find out what we do with what we’ve learned.”
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