I watch the Rettlings ascend the dais one by one, trying to ignore the pounding in my chest. It doesn’t help that I constantly find my attention back on Kyor. From here, I can see the marks for his fealty Gods with perfect clarity. Yordenrin and Niairah. I was right about the chaos then, and Niairah is hardly a surprise, given he’s probably a fire wielder like his father.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t feel the same need to look at Jonas or Benny, but then maybe that’s because I don’t fear what they might do to me.
I’m only able to forget about Kyor entirely when the first of our allies is called up. Loch.
His pace is quick, almost a near sprint over to the priestess. Unlike with Baylis, when the blade is removed, a fair amount of blood streamsfrom his hand – enough to cause droplets to fall into the sand as he rushes back to his place – and then Jai is called next.
I can’t help but notice the possibly stolen dagger still protruding from Jai’s weapons belt, and I wonder if Kyor’s seen it too. He would know for certain if it is indeed the missing one.
As Jai takes his place with arms extended, she recites the standard line. ‘Jai Den, you have offered your tears. Now you will offer your blood. May Etta accept it or may the consequences be just.’
The knife plunges into the back of Jai’s hand, but when it’s removed and Jai stands, there is a slight wobble to his frame. It could just be due to his size, of course. He’s a big man and was near enough lying on the ground, but as he takes his first step off the dais, I notice the cut on his hand. While the other Rettlings’ wounds varied from a deep gash to a mere scratch, Jai’s hand is streaming with a torrent of blood, colouring his fingers, his nails, and even his trousers. It pours like a river, staining the sand beneath his feet.
I thought the magic was supposed tolimitthe damage, yet blood is rushing from him so fast that his face is paling. With one hand covering my mouth, I reach out for Llinos with the other. But she’s not looking at me. She’s not even looking at Jai. Instead, her gaze is locked on Coulter, who is watching his idol with abject horror.
The young Rettling’s eyes are red with tears, his whole body shaking as he bites down on his knuckles, low whimpers escaping from his mouth like a wounded animal.
Jai is still moving, staggering slowly towards us, towards Coulter. But every step he makes is a stumble, a sway that knocks him more and more off balance. He’s still walking … until he’s not. Sand billows up from the ground as he falls to his knees. His glassy eyes meet his protégé’s for a heartbeat before he drops face-down to the ground.
‘No!’ Coulter screams. That single word is all it takes, and he knows it.
His hands fly up to his mouth as he shakes his head repeatedly. But it’s too late. Two priestesses move in to grab him, eyes flashing with fury.
‘Please, no …’ he says, eyes wide with panic as they grab him by the wrists and drag him through the trail of blood left by his friend.
Three words. Three stitches. Three years.
Shut up, Coulter!
He’ll still be young when he’s free if he just stops now.
He doesn’t stop. ‘I didn’t mean to disrespect them! I didn’t! I didn’t! Pleasebelieve me!’
Pain sears through my chest. How many words was that? My mind can’t keep a tally. More than ten, surely. Fifteen? Twenty? I feel sick. Twenty years? That’s more years than he’s been alive.
He doesn’t deserve this. I want to run to him and clasp my hand around his mouth. Or to scream out at him to shut the fuck up. But I can’t. None of us can.
Not unless we want to share the same fate.
I press my lips together as a tear slides down my cheek. I hear a soft, pained sound next to me and I reach again. This time my hand finds Llinos’s, though I don’t look at her. I don’t need to. I know she’ll be crying too. Tears of impotence and fury. It’swrong.
I’ve seen plenty of dead bodies during my years in the slums – killed by sickness or starvation, or murdered for not paying what’s owed to someone like Rula – but hollow eyes and lifeless lips never fail to evoke the same sense of sickness, especially when they belonged to someone you knew.
Guilt strikes, hot and thick, and I choke on it. What if the Goddess decided it was Jai’s time to meet Mortidem because he stole the blade? Kyor told me to tell the thief to return it, but I didn’t. If I had, if Jai had returned it, would he be standing beside me now? No, there had to be more to his death than simply theft, or else surely Zara would have been struck down too. ShekilledRettlings, yet from what I could see, she had no issues when the blade impaled her hand.
I look again at the priestess’s dagger. I now have no doubt that it holds magic.
My grip on Llinos remains unwavering, as does hers on me, the pair of us offering the only support we can.
To die like Jai just did, with no chance of even fighting back and surrounded by people watching on in stunned silence, doesn’t feel right. None of this feels right.
In a daze, I watch Kyor take to the dais. The ritual is completed without issue and Kyor returns to his place, a thin trickle of blood weaving its way down his wrist. My gaze meets his for just a second before it’s torn away by the calling of another name.
Mine.
Chapter 21
Jai’s body is still on the ground, face down in the sand.
