“Daddy…” I look down at her, she started calling me her dad not long after she called Rory uncle at his grave. She knows I’m not her real Da, but she said she wanted me to be her other Daddy. I couldn’t say no, this kid blows me away every fucking day and she’s only four.
She climbs into my lap and settles back, tucking her head onto my chest and placing her little hand over my heart. “You not alone, I’m here.” Then she hands me Rory’s letter.
My demon settles, and I breathe a sigh of relief. Kissing the top of Maddie’s head I take the envelope from her and rip it open, pulling out the letter, I swallow then start to read.
Ro,
God I am so fucking sorry!
I know you felt it, the day that I died, and for that I am beyond sorry. There are no words to express just how sorry I am.
Fuck me we were trouble growing up, I’m surprised we didn’t turn Ma grey.
Remember when I stole that bottle of whiskey from Da’s office, and you took the blame so I wouldn’t get a hiding…he knew. He wrote it in his journal, he knew it was me all along, but he believed that if you were prepared to take the shit for my little act of thievery then he wasn’t going to let on. He knew you’d find a way to blame yourself for him figuring out it was me, even if he told you, it wasn’t on you.
He knew you were different; he knew you felt things on another level, that’s why he tried to hone your skills. He was trying to give you an outlet to control the demon inside of you.
Da was one of the most stubborn men I have ever met, he never really showed us much love growing up. But that was the pride, he wrote it all down though. He was so fucking unbelievably proud of each and every one of us. But you brother, you held a special place in his heart. It was because you were different that he nurtured you more.
You see the thing is his brother was like you…yeah you read that right, he had a brother, who you were exactly like in every way.
His name was Eoin, they knew growing up he was different. But back then they didn’t know how to help him. And in the end his darkness consumed him, he started one wrong fight. A fight that he couldn’t win, and a week after his fifteenth birthday he was stabbed to death.
Da never forgave himself for it, he believed he should have done more for him. He believed he should have saved him, which is why he spent so long teaching you what he could.
But he didn’t know that I was your anchor. He didn’t know that I was the only one who could bring you back from the brink.
I have one regret in this life, and that is that I wasn’t able to help you find another anchor, another way to control your demon.
What he did know, was that you are the family protector, but that doesn’t mean you have to protect us all, all of the time.
And it doesn’t mean saving us from our fate, destiny has a plan for each of us and you can’t intervene. There is nothing you can do that will change the outcome of our destiny. Remember that!
Unless you’re the one pulling the trigger, our deaths are not on you!
There are a few things I need you to do for me.
Number 1, let our brothers in, talk to them… they need to help you now, they need to keep you tethered.
Number 2, find the fucker that killed me and give him hell.
Number 3, let Connor have his moment with Liam, you need to be the one to end it. You’re the only one that can handle it but let Con ease his woman’s pain.
Number 4, you need to talk to Halliwell, and then I need you to make sure he brings Nora home. She’s tucked away, safe and only Halliwell knows her location. I know you’re asking yourself why I need you to make sure he brings her home, but brother, you know I have loved her all my life. It took me way too long to figure that out, but I finally did.
I need you to find her, because she has something that belongs to us.
And lastly, find someone to love, who loves you, you deserve to be happy. I promise there is someone out there for you, someone who can anchor you the way I do. You just need to find them and let them in.
Do this for me, I can rest knowing you’re safe and happy.
Remember you can make it through anything that life throws at you as long as you have our brothers at your side.
I love you brother, and I’ll always be with you.
All my love
Rory.
