Sighing softly, I let myself finally give in to his spell, falling prey to the perfect seduction. “Yes,” I confess, not even understanding everything that I’m feeling.
All I know is his hot palm is sliding down my neck, stopping at the base of my throat right above my heaving breasts. His eyes are still focused on mine, and his sensual mouth is only inches from my own.
“So did I. I would have done anything,anything, to touch her,” he admits as his eyes leave mine.
The spell is broken as his gaze drifts to the painting on the wall.
With complete reverence, he tells me, “So I did.” Dropping his hands from my shoulders, breaking the last of the provocative web he has spun, he says, “Dinner’s ready. I’ll meet you in the dining room.”
Confession ~
I know I haven’t typed much over the last few days, but I have so much to say.
I need to confess something.
I’m stalking Phillipe Tibideau.
I’m not sure if it’s really stalking when he keeps insisting that I return, but whenever I’m away from him, I feel an anxious need to go to him, to be near him, to hear his voice.
So, I went back to the chateau today, just like I did yesterday and the day before that.
There’s something about him that speaks to me. As insane and unreal as it sounds, I feel like I can hear him before he makes a sound. I don’t understand it, but that’s exactly how it feels.
He told me yesterday that he wouldshowme something if I came to him today.
I questioned his choice of words because most people slip at one point or another when they talk to me, but he just laughed and repeated that he wanted to show me something.
Should I be scared of the way I’m feeling? Probably.
Am I? No.
I find I’m eager and absolutely impatient toseewhat he feels he canshowa blind person.
I shut the journal as I lie in bed the following morning, resenting the silent command I find myself now following. He really is bossy in a quiet, insistent way. I wonder for a moment if Chantel felt that way about him, too.
As I think back to last night, I’m surprised that I don’t feel at all uncomfortable about what occurred on the stairs. I actually feel the opposite. All of a sudden, I feel like I know so much more than I did the day before, but in actuality, I knownothingmore than I already did. It’s public knowledge that Phillipe was involved with the woman in the paintings, but having it confirmed makes me feel more?—
WhatdoI feel? More accepting of the fact that she brought out so many emotions in me? Maybe. Maybe it is natural to feel desire when you look at a moment in time that has been captured by someone who was full of that same emotion while painting his masterpiece.Is that the definition of good art?Creating a piece that makes you feel exactly the way the artist wants you to feel?
In any case, the episode on the stairs has not made me uncomfortable by any means. Instead, it has intrigued the journalist in me.
Who is Phillipe Tibideau? Is he just a misunderstood, sad artist who now hides himself away? Or is he something much darker than that?
I desperately want to know.
Almost like Chantel in her journal, I find that I want to know more about him. He seems to have that effect on people in general, considering the tabloids and magazines that have featured him since he was discovered in that little French art gallery where he first sold his work.
From the moment his picture was taken, sold, and then splashed all over the front pages for the world to see, women have been romanticizing him, and men have been speculating about the enigma that is Phillipe Tibideau.
As of right now, though, I have another burning question that is chasing on the heels of all of that.What did he show Chantel?
Phillipe moves around his studio quietly.
He wasn’t able to sleep last night. Dreams and nightmares plagued him equally. It didn’t matter which way the dream took him. Inevitably, when he awoke, one fact remained.Sheis gone.
Making his way over to the shelves that housed his stereo, he reaches out and hits play. Suddenly, the room is filled with the haunting and melancholic rhythm of a violinist playing “Méditation” fromThaïs. Phillipe closes his eyes, picturing her…
“I want you to play for me,” he told her as he passed the violin back.
