“I didn’t say she didn’t love me.”
“You did,” he replies calmly. “With your actions, as did she. You don’t sell someone you love.”
“What do you want from me?”
He crouches in front of me and levels his eyes with mine.
“Everything. Your body and soul. To be your only focus. I want to own you to the point where we are one person, that you cannot survive without me. Just like I refuse to breathe without you.”
My chest tightens painfully at that scary and horrific statement.
“That’s not love, Ethan.”
“No, it’s not in the way you have been programmed to think.”
“What is it then?”
He thinks for a moment and then stuns me with the mic drop.
“Ownership without the illusion.”
I close my eyes. Fuck me, I should run. I should scream, but my body is heavy and my heart confused. I can’t deny that somewhere deep inside, something broken in me recognizes him. He is my truth, but it comes with some deadly side effects.
“I’m scared of you,” I say.
“I know, but don’t be.”
“I don’t trust you.”
“You shouldn’t.”
“I don’t know if I can stop.”
“I know you won’t.”
Tears finally fall, silently but it fills me with relief as I whisper the ugliest truth I’ve ever known.
“I feel more real with you than I ever did with her.”
Ethan stands and offers his hand. The hand ofsomething that does not hold doubt. I stare at it as it represents the future I shouldn’t choose, but I take it anyway. Because let’s face it, I’m tired and lonely, and the monster sees me. I don’t know how to survive being unseen again.
CHAPTER 26 - ETHAN
Iwalk with Leo to my bedroom, victorious in my accomplishment. This is what I’ve been working towards. Leo goes to sit on the edge of the bed and he has never looked more beautiful. I own him now and it brings me nothing but peace.
I move over to the bed and stand in front of him, when he leans forward placing his head on my stomach, I pull hard on the back of his hair so he looks up at me and I take in the sight before me. He’s breathing like someone who has finally stopped drowning. I look at the fracture lines on his face, the beautiful damage from his devoted belief in love. All of it now replaced with obedience.
Nobody will ever take him away from me.
“Tell me, I need to hear the words, Leo,” I say, pulling harder on his hair, causing him to wince. He takes in a shaky breath and laser focuses those pretty eyes on me.
“I’m yours.”
A wave of relief makes my body shiver. This is what it feels like. Ownership.
Without having to guide him, Leo removes my belt with confidence and opens my pants, only removing enough fabric until my dick springs free. This will be the first time he has sucked my cock, and with the way he is looking at it, admiring it like it’s the best thing he has ever seen, I’m pretty sure this will be the best blow job I’ve ever received.
“Open that pretty mouth,” I say, watching his glazed over stare as he opens those pouty lips when I push my dick inside. His eyes close on a small moan and I clench at the warmth that covers my cock.
