“I do, with all my heart. We connected a while ago, long before this wedding, and lost touch till now. I didn’t know he was going to be here,” I explain to him.
“I’m happy for you, D. If this man is who makes you happy, you deserve it,” he says quietly.
“He is,” I tell him honestly. He nods again. “Chance, you really need to work out what you want out of life. You have the fame and the fortune, but you don’t seem happy.”
“Because I’m not,” he confesses.
“Are you still going to therapy?”
He shakes his head. “No.”
“Maybe you should go again. I also think you should consider coming out. I think that secret is weighing on you immensely. You can’t be truly authentic to you, and it’s eating you alive. Noone is going to care if you like men and women. There are so many celebs who are bisexual.” I can see him listening, but I don’t think my words are going to change him. “I truly wish you well, Chance, but I’m asking you for some space at the moment.”
“I get it,” he tells me.
“But if you need me, I will be there,” I add.
He gives me a sad smile and walks away.
Home sweet home.
It was hard leaving paradise and coming back to reality. I’m straight back into work. We still have awards season and some of the biggest nights coming up, and I need to prepare my clients for their biggest nights. Charlie had sent me flowers, and they were waiting for me when I got home. We’ve been messaging nonstop since he left just like we did at the beginning, but this time he is being flirtatious. He sent a photo to me the other day of him dressed up like a cowboy, that ass in those jeans, shirtless, sweaty, with a cowboy hat, it was pure porn, something I have looked at nightly as I jerk off over it.I miss him.He’s been telling me that his therapy sessions have been good and he’s working through his problems and starting to feel lighter already. Which makes me incredibly proud of him.
Charlie: How was work?
Derrick: Work is work. I’m just getting home.
Charlie: It’s late.
Derrick: I know. Just so much to do but I’m almost there.
Charlie: Wish I was there to give you a massage.
Derrick: That would be wonderful right now. Wish you were here too. I miss you.
Charlie: I miss you too.
Derrick: I have my meeting with the agency about options for kids.
Charlie: Bet that is exciting. I can’t wait to hear about it all.
Derrick: I’m kind of nervous. What happens if it’s impossible to do?
Charlie: There are loads of couples that adopt babies, they aren’t going to say no to just you. There is also overseas adoption. You have options. This one place isn’t the start and end of your family journey.
Derrick: You’re right. It’s exciting and nerve-racking. I would love to have my kids close to my friend’s kids, but I know that might not be possible.
Charlie: Kids are a blessing no matter when they come.
Derrick: You’re so good at calming me down when I start freaking out.
Charlie: Years of therapy.
Derrick: That will do it. Look, you picked up a new skill.
Charlie: That is true. Got to look at the bright side of things sometimes. Have you eaten yet?
Derrick: No. I grabbed a salad on my way home.
