He ripped my panties from my body, and I felt his hardness, and he ground against me. I bit my bottom lip and moaned, opening my legs wider to receive him when he was ready for me.
I put this off long enough. If I didn't call my mother now, I'd never get up the courage to do so. I sat on the edge of Jamari's bed with my hand cradling my phone. Why was I even scared to call my mother? I was a grown ass woman and should be able to call her with no problems.
When I called to share the news with Jacey, she was happy for me. She squealed on the phone and wanted to talk to Jamari.I didn't know what they talked about, but he told her that she didn't have to worry about anything.
Now I dreaded calling the one person who mattered a great deal to me. Hopefully, she was happy for me as I was. Jamari and his siblings were in the kitchen eating the lasagna I made for them. As soon as Jamari and I walked through the door, the kids said they were hungry, so I wasted no time getting into the kitchen to feed my babies. One thing I was glad about was that they accepted me into Jamari's life. I also wanted to see if my lasagna was better than Jamari's, since that was his specialty.
I found my mother's name in my phone and made the call. This was probably something I should do face-to-face, but I couldn't face her right now. Would she be disappointed in me? I knew it was too late to even think about that right now.
I pressed the screen, and the phone began to ring. My heart was pounding, but I could get this done. I had to.
"Hello," she answered.
I gulped. "Hi, Mama."
There was silence on the other end of the phone.Could she tell I was up to something?That was one thing my mother could always tell when I was a child.
"What did you do, Chy?" she asked, causing me to cringe.
I had to let her know since I had come this far. "Mama, I'm pregnant," I blurted.
Again, silence was on the other end of the phone.
"You are? By who? I didn't even know you were seeing someone."
I gulped since I didn't tell her about Jamari and me. "Yeah, we started dating a couple of months ago, back in November."
"November!" she bellowed. "What the hell do you know about this man to be pregnant by him?"
I had to remove the phone from my ear because of the yelling she was doing. Once she calmed down a little, I gave her arundown of what I knew about Jamari. The more I talked, the more she scoffed.
"You don't even know this man, and you're pregnant by him. He's already taking care of kids. You weren't thinking when you laid down with this man and had a baby. You'll be a single mother just like I was," she ranted.
I gasped when she hung up in my face. Tear after tear rolled down my face. The doubt I had before returned. I couldn't believe the words that spewed out of my mother's mouth at me. I'd never known her to be so cruel when it came to me. I tried to get the angry tone she had out of my ear, but it was impossible.
The door to Jamari's bedroom opened, and he stepped in. When he saw the tears running down my face, he quickly approached me. He pulled me into his arms, and I cried into his chest.
"What happened?" he asked, caressing my arm.
I told him what my mother said between my sobs.
"This is too much. My mother isn't happy for me."
"Nah, you didn't deserve what she said to you. You have nothing to worry about. As I told you earlier today, I plan to be in your life no matter what. I'll never turn my back on you or our child."
I smiled through my tears. "Jamari, I know that. Her words stung. My mother has gotten mean to me for no reason, and I don't like it."
I hated it when my mother was mean to me for no reason. Maybe she had problems of her own and took out her frustration on me. Either way it went, I shouldn't be the one catching hell because of her problems. Maybe I needed to talk to her and see what she was up to. My mother and I used to be close, but I didn't know the lady she had become. Could she and my father be having problems? Was their friendship not working out anymore?
"I don't know your mother to answer those questions, but I'm here to let you know that what she said wasn't truthful. I'm here with you until the end if you'll have me," Jamari voiced.
I lifted my head from his chest and gave him a small smile. "I'll always be here, Jamari."
He kissed my forehead, and I laid my head back on his chest. I enjoyed the silence that wrapped around us. I planned to stay the night with him and his siblings, too.
"How does it feel?"Jamari asked me as I cleaned the kitchen.
I shrugged. "I'm not sure how I feel right now. Since I quit working at Tito's, I still need to find a new job. Crème Coffee Café is hiring, so I'm thinking I'll go get an application from there."
