“Hmm.I know.”He pushes me down on the bed, and in one swoop, relieves me of the last piece of clothing on my body.He crawls over me like a tiger.Hunger shines in his eyes, tongue wiping across his lips.
His calloused hands squeeze my love handles, making me shiver in anticipation.“Mhm.So lucky to have all this to hold and cherish.”
My insecurities resurface.I squirm to shift away, but he pins me to the bed with his body weight.
The friction of our hips rubbing together sends sparks of lust through my body, washing away the doubts and despair of my inexperience.
Jimmy bites my right nipple, followed by the left, and lowers himself on me, planting kisses and nuzzling his nose along the way.His stubble against my soft curly body hair lights tiny tingles.
“Let me make this special for you.”He traces a trail of wetness as his tongue sweeps the edge of my hip bone to the tip of my stiff cock.
“Jimmy.”I croak and arch my back.
‘Mmm’ is the only sound I hear as his heavy arm lies over my stomach and stops me from squirming.The wet, hotness of his mouth on me sends my eyes rolling back, and a moan escapes my mouth.I let him drag me into the vortex of sensual exhilaration.
Unhinged.A blubbering mess.I float, ready to be taken apart by this man.Stars swim before my eyes when his finger nudges my hole, his mouth still wrapped around my dick.
Aaj phir jeene ki tamanna hai.Yes, I want to live again.This time as my true gay self.I clutch the bedsheet.My breaths become ragged.“Jimmy, please.”
“Please, what?What do you want?”
“More.Please.”I manage single words as his thumb joins his finger around the rim of my hole.Prodding and poking.
“I got you, Addy.We have all the time.”
The bubbles of lust fire up every cell in my body.My moans become louder with each bob of his head on my hardened shaft.
I am undone.My pleas make him double down, increasing the pace of sucking. I blubber on.The throbbing in my cock is the first sign I am about to come.I try to push his head away, but the fingers of his free hand dig into my waist.
“JIMMY!”I shout and release into his mouth as his finger breaks the barrier of my butthole.
***
“Shit.Give me a second.”I try to catch my breath.My heartbeats still galloping at the speed of a superfast train.
As I come down from the stratospheric high, the reality of crashing to the ground increases by the second.What now?My ineptness gnaws at my insides.Questions rake the brain.Am I supposed to return the favour?But how?I have never given a blowjob.What is the post-orgasm etiquette between guys?
“Stop chewing your lip.”Jimmy crawls over me, placing kisses.
“Take this off.I want the complete view.”He swipes away the blanket I had pulled over my chest.
“This is better.”He licks my jaw while caging me between his arms and legs.He leers at my naked body like a predator about to devour its prey.
But his young, handsome face makes the worry worms return.Is this a hook-up for him?Will he want more with an inexperienced older guy?
What have I done?The age difference cuts through my high.How did I allow this to happen?I am the mature guy here.The man who should not be throwing himself at Jimmy.And yet, here I am.
I search Jimmy’s face for answers to the apprehensions nagging me. Will I be able to walk away from this one night, expecting nothing more than satisfying my need for sexual exploration?No attachments or feelings.Only pure lust.The years of yearning exploded the moment his lips touched my skin, setting off a carnal fire only Jimmy had the power to quell.And here he is, above me, offering himself.The look in his eyes makes me want more.But do I deserve more with what I have set in motion?My lies.
“Take your time, old man.I am not done with you.”
His words bring me back to the moment.I study the mirth in his eyes and play along.Why ruin his night?A lame excuse to escape from the cauldron of poison brewing inside me.
“Am I now?”I tickle his waist and put on an innocent, fluttering eye display while trying to stop the smile from curling my lips.
Jimmy drops on all fours, crashing his mouth on me.He bites and nips his way to my nipples.The lick, followed by the sting of his teeth, makes me arch my back and press into him.He continues his ministrations, first on the left before moving to the right nipple.“Oh, God.Where did you learn all this?”
“Remember, I am the older gay between us.”Jimmy winks and goes back to marking me with his teeth.My thoughts are so conflicted on this.The jealous serpent rears at the mere inkling of Jimmy with someone else.But, on another plane, I am thankful.At least one of us is experienced in bed.
