“Your demeanor is quite lovely,” he says. “Friendly. Obedient.” He lowers the penlight with a sigh, his other hand falling to rest on my bare leg.
“Thank you, Doctor,” I say, although dread coils in my stomach. A sickening feeling.
“Now,” he says, removing his hand as he turns away. “Another day or so, and I dare say you’ll be better than ever. Anton offered you some excellent coping mechanisms. You’ll be one hundred percent.” He smiles. “You’ve made him very proud.”
I nod, thanking him.
“Limit your interactions with others until you’re completely settled,” he says. “And limit your physical activity. You can resume exercise next week.AndI’m clearing you to attend the field trip on Sunday,” he adds. “Just so long as you behave. I believe you’re all going to the movies.”
I beam at him, thrilled. “Thank you, Doctor,” I say gratefully. “I’m so excited!”
He chuckles. “I thought you might be.”
He motions for me to hop down from the table. Then he comes over and holds out a sugar-free lollipop.
I take the sucker and unwrap it, sticking it between my teeth and cheek. But the sudden shot of sweetness turns my stomach. I can barely swallow down the chemical flavor. The doctor puts his hand on my low back and leads me toward the door.
“We’ll see you in a few weeks, my girl,” he says. “Have a wonderful day.”
I smile around the lollipop, thanking him again, and walk out into the hall. Once his office door shuts, the smile falls from my lips and I immediately take the lollipop out of my mouth.
I decide that I don’t like it anymore. In fact, I never want another lollipop again.
The idea comes in a flash, something angrier than warranted. I’m reminded of what Valentine said to me outside the office:You should be outraged.
Outraged about what?
But just as quickly as it came on, the anger fades, leaving me uncomfortable instead. I start back to my room to gather my books for class, dropping the lollipop in the trash along the way.
Impulse Control Therapy Analysis
Philomena Rhodes Y2, S2
Philomena was displaying signs of distress, related to the dismissal of another girl.
To alleviate this pain, the emotions were overwritten. She is now happy for the student and very contented.
Parental memories were also reset, offering a more loving backstory. It increases her attachment to the Rhodes family and positions her for a successful future after graduation. She should be very amenable to their requests.
The past week of memories were also adjusted to avoid confusion.
After a consult with Winston Weeks, it is my belief that Philomena is still on track for graduation, although she has entered probationary status for the remainder of the year. However, it was advised that she continue socialization. Her character thrives when in proximity to others.
From all accounts, impulse control therapy appears to be a success and no follow-up is necessary at this time.
Anton Stuart
Innovations Academy
21
Professor Allister makes a scene when I rejoin the class. We’ve moved on from phone manners to stylization. How to best present yourself to make a memorable impression.
“And look what we have here,” the professor announces as I walk in. He runs his gaze over me approvingly. “You see, girls,” he tells the class, “thisis beauty. Pleasant and contained.”
He comes to stand next to me, and I can smell his perspiration through his suit. “Outrageous hair and wild makeup will turn people off. It’s an act of rebellion, displeasing to men. We want to see your natural beauty, not a trick of mirrors. Mr. Petrov has determined your best assets and wants you to accentuate them, not make a spectacle of yourself.” He turns to me, offering his hand. Reluctantly, I slide my palm into it.
“Thank you, Philomena. You are lovely.”
