Noah wrapped his arms around Kaj’s waist and pulled their bodies flush together, parting his lips. He tasted like mint toothpaste, freedom, and something that was entirely and uniquely his own. Kaj couldn’t pinpoint exactly what it was, but he’d always been addicted to it.
Time paused as the world shrank to the two of them. Licking, biting, and sucking, they unleashed the ravenous wolves they kept hidden in the dark. A fire ignited as their tongues entwined, fierce and indomitable. Kaj was burning with brutal, carnal desire, and Noah…Fuck. He was the oxygen that fueled the blaze.
Reluctantly pulling apart, they rested their foreheads together, panting as they struggled to catch their breath.
Noah’s hands traveled down Kaj’s body, and his thumbs hooked into the front of the waistband of his sweats and boxer briefs. The lamp beside the bed was the only thing illuminating the room, but it was all Kaj needed to see the glint of mischief in his gaze.
“Took you long enough,” he drawled.
“You’ll regret this.” Kaj thumbed Noah’s bottom lip. “You have no idea what I’m gonna do to you.”
Noah hadn’t been subtle about it, so Kaj was very well aware of what he wanted. And tonight, he was getting it all. The unfiltered, unhinged animal that Kaj was at his core. Because he was done making excuses and avoiding. He was done running. He was done lying to himself.
Kaj reached for the hem of his T-shirt and swiftly yanked it over his head. With a hand firmly gripping Noah’s nape and the other on the small of his back, he captured his mouth in a bruising kiss. Something like fear blended with anger buzzed in Kaj’s mind, but the overpowering urge to possess and break this man drowned everything else out.
The few clothes they had left flew in every direction as they stumbled across the room. They were nothing but lips, hands, and raging zeal. Noah’s fingers roamed over Kaj’s body, tracing the muscles of his back as if he were trying to map all the ridges and valleys of him. It had been so damn long… Warmth spread through his veins, making him feel drunk-dazed as Noah’s intoxicating scent invaded his mind. He wanted more of the flicks of his tongue. Of the desperation thrumming under his skin. Of his cock, hard and twitching against his own.
As they reached the bed, Kaj pushed Noah down and climbed on top to straddle his lap. He’d seen this man in every state and position years ago, but looking at him now, squirming under him, was a fucking fantasy come true.
Kaj swallowed hard, taking in the sight.A black lettering tattoo extended between his hip bones. A demon skull in the middle of his abdomen. Mirroring pieces on his pecs. Noah was a vision, pure artistry and mystery, but the different shades of grey, black, and little splashes of red transformed him into a walking masterpiece.
Without wasting another second, Kaj leaned down, relishing in the scrape of Noah’s short stubble against his lips as he trailed open-mouthed kisses along his jaw. He moved down his neck and chest, circling his tongue around one of his nipples before sucking on it.
“Fuck…” Noah raked his fingers through Kaj’s hair.
Taking advantage of his position, Kaj rolled his hips over Noah’s, dragging a raspy moan from their throats. But instead of setting a frantic pace, like the beast inside him was aching for, he moved obscenely slow.
Kaj raised his head and plunged directly into the depths of those onyx eyes. It was so dark in there, so scary and endless, and still all he could feel was the pull of Noah’s gravity tethering him.
Noah slid his hands up Kaj’s thighs, blunt nails clawing at his flesh as they continued undulating in perfect sync. The sensation of skin on skin weaved through the groans and curses falling from their parted lips. Warm. Soft. Hard. He didn’t remember a time when rubbing his dick against another felt so fucking good. Maybe it had always been this enjoyable and abstinence was just playing with his perception, but Noah’s foreskin retracted all the way, and the precum glistening on their engorged heads as they rubbed together was one of the most erotic things Kaj had seen in years.
Screwing a person from the opposite sex was never dull, but for Kaj, getting involved with someone endowed with dick was on a different level. The shared awareness of knowing more or lessexactlywhat the other was feeling depending on how he touched them was a magical phenomenon, a mirage, an out-of-body experience where he witnessed the pleasure he knew firsthand on their body. It was fucking religion.
“Larsen,” Noah husked as Kaj spit on his palm and wrapped it around their cocks. “The other day you said you’re not seeing anyone…” He groaned, pressing his head into the pillow when the drummer twisted his wrist at the end of an upstroke. “When did you last get tested?”
Kaj’s first instinct was to snap at Noah. Not because of the question itself, but because he was opening his mouth for something other than groaning or screaming his name. However, it was more than a fair—and necessary—thing to discuss.
“Six months ago,” Kaj said as he continued jerking their dicks. “And before you say anything stupid”—he flashed him a warning glare—“I haven’t had sex with anyone since.” That part was painful to admit. Kind of disappointing, too. He was supposed to stay celibate for at least a year, but he didn’t have the strength or desire to back out now. “You?”
“Clean as a whistle.” Noah glided his hands farther up Kaj’s thighs, fingers digging into his hips. “Fuck… I wanna suck you so bad.” He writhed. “Slow down, though. If you keep going on like that, I’m gonna come.”
“Embarrassingly fast, are we?” Kaj panted without stopping the frantic motion of his fist, as if the impending release wasn’t drawing up his balls.
“Been a while for me, too, you fucking asshole.”
“Liar.” Kaj clenched his teeth, trying to stay in the moment and not let his anger touch the surface.
Noah bit his bottom lip, moving his hips ever so slightly while looking at Kaj’s hand wrapped around them. “What are you talking about?”
“Björn’s birthday party.”
Noah snorted, flashing Kaj a devilish grin before fixating on their cocks again. “Nothing happened. We just got tired and…” A moan escaped him between gritted teeth. “We had to catch the same train to get home.”
Kaj’s heart somersaulted, too excited at the admission.
Without letting go of their cocks, he moved the hand he was using for leverage to Noah’s neck. But before he could retort or even process what was happening, Noah locked his arm, tangled around him like a snake, and suddenly they were rolling.
“Told you I could easily beat you.” Noah smirked as he settled between Kaj’s legs, pressing his pelvis down.
