What even?
“He has a PlayStation and shooting games,” Noah said when Trine narrowed her blue eyes on them. “The guys love it. That’s why they always wanna go there.”
“The guys, huh?” She quirked an eyebrow.
This woman!
Noah could keep his mouth shut, not even blink, and she would still know things she wasn’t supposed to know. Sometimes she simply got a rough idea of what it could be, but others, she nailed straight on the head. If they didn’t want her to find out what was going on, they’d better put on their best masks around her.
She probably wouldn’t care, but Noah didn’t want to attend another TED talk; the one about safe sex a couple years back was mortifying. Knowing her, she would even give him tips on how to please a man. So, yeah,no thank you. That’s where he set the limit.
“Should I buy you one so you spend more time at home?” she asked, leaning her elbows on the counter as she tossed a fry in her mouth.
“I don’t like video games.” Noah shrugged. “But feel free to waste your money however you want, Mom. Can we go now?”
Trine laughed, shaking her brunette head as she ruffled Noah’s. “Yeah, go.”
They grabbed their food and drinks, going around the kitchen island to disappear into his room. Noah couldn’t take the questioning anymore. It was feeling a lot like a third-degree interrogation.
“You better prepare breakfast for me tomorrow, though,” she said. “And I want waffles!”
“Why would I do that?” Noah stopped at the threshold of the hallway that separated all three bedrooms and looked at her. As opposed to Kaj’s, this was a small, one-story house. He could perfectly see her wicked smile from where he was standing.
“First, I’m your mother and deserve to be spoiled once in a while. And second, bribery. So I keep my nosy ears off you tonight.”
Noah gulped. “Yeah, sure. Whatever.”
He rushed to enter his bedroom and kicked the door shut. Before he could process the fact that Trine most likely already knew something had happened between them, Kaj was kissing him with desperate need.
Noah’s knees wobbled, and his mind went completely blank. It was a miracle that he didn’t drop the plate.
“We should wait,” he said when Kaj gripped the front of his hoodie, leaving him a second to breathe.
“For what?”
“For her to get busy with something.”
Kaj protested against his mouth, “But I don’t wanna wait. It’s been a fucking month…”
Noah wasveryaware of that.
He couldn’t remember masturbating so much in the past. Hardly did it once every two weeks. Now, most days, he jerked off in the morning when he was in the shower and at night. Sometimes he would add an extra round for good measure in the afternoon, too. Doing it with a face in mind was something completely new to him, but he was starting to like it. Didn’t feel so pitiful when he didn’t just do it to empty his balls. Turned out he wasn’t broken, just needed some inspiration.
But no matter how many times he reached that delicious peak, it was never enough. He yearned to be touched. But right now wasnotthe best moment.
“Kaj, wait, wait... I’m gonna drop this,” Noah mumbled between kisses, looking out of the corner of his eye while he placed the sandwich and drink on his desk.
“I need you naked.”
The plate had just touched a solid surface when Noah froze, fingers brushing the ceramic as he moved away with Kaj’s lips still glued to his.
He couldn’t voice it and expose himself, but he was afraid that Kaj might not like what was underneath his clothes. His abs were showing, though it was more for the lack of fat than actually being strong. Everyone developed differently, and apparently his body had decided that up was the only way to grow. He was taller than expected, considering he used to be quite short, yet he was skinny as fuck. He also didn’t have any feminine attributes, which Kaj liked.
What if that was just a phase? What if the realization that Noah was in fact aboymade him touch base and back out? He didn’t want to become a heartbroken, gloomy, ice-cream-eating mess like Mom after her last boyfriend cheated on her—she hadn’t told him, but he’d eavesdropped on that conversation unintentionally and saw the aftermath.
Noah had never been rejected romantically. Not because he was the most attractive guy on Earth, but because he’d never tried. Had never been interested in any of this. Amoebas had a more active sexual life than he did. But Kaj had flipped his world upside down, and now everything was scary.
“My mom’s outside.” Noah grabbed Kaj’s hands when they gripped the hem of his hoodie.
