Apparently, the first two attempts they couldn’t do it because it hurt her too much, and after that, they hadn’t had many opportunities without their parents being around. Until Nikolaj and Katja went on a trip, leaving Kaj home alone with Jesper, who’d returned from college for summer break.
“Oh, fuck. It was the best sensation ever,” Kaj had said. “So warm and tight. I don’t know how to describe it. It’s insane. You’d have to do it yourself to know what I’m talking about.” He readjusted himself. “I spent a lot of time, you know, trying to loosen her. She tastes so sweet and—”
“Too much information.” Noah’s face scrunched in disgust.
Kaj laughed, patting Noah’s shoulder. “Sorry. It’s just too good to be true.”
“I bet.”
“Can’t wait for her to come over tonight and repeat.”
A wave of arousal and jealousy filled Noah’s veins when those words rolled from his friend’s mouth, making his heart trip.
“Peacock,” Noah mumbled right before Kaj plunged into the sea.
“What was that?” Kaj chuckled when he resurfaced, slicking his hair back as water droplets dribbled down his chest.
“You’re bragging.”
“Trust me, I’m not.”
After that brief and more than uncomfortable interaction, Noah was aware Kaj and Emma had shagged like rabbits in the following weeks. Then suddenly, one oddly hot September day, he claimed he was tired of lying every time he said he loved her back, tired of making plans just to make her happy when he didn’t really want to, tired of the guilt. So now, he was single again.
Did that change anything for them? Not at all, but it eased Noah’s mind a little.
“Noah,” Kaj called, bringing him back to the present with a flick to the nose.
“What the hell?” He covered it with a palm and glared at his friend.
“Where were you?”
“Here, or am I invisible now?”
“Grumpy.”
“I’m not grumpy. That shit hurt.” Noah clicked his tongue, looking down at Kaj’s Slayer tee, then at his Megadeth one.
Even if they mostly played rock classics, after listening to various music styles within the rock-metal genre, they’d dived into a slightly heavier side of it a few months ago. And yes, of course, they were obsessed now. Nikolaj made it easy for them to find a new favorite every week, since he owned hundreds of albums in every format one could think of.
“Sorry not sorry.” Kaj flashed him a wicked grin as he plopped onto the couch beside him, crossing his ankles on the coffee table.
“Assclown.” He took the soda Kaj was handing him.
They were in the garage, waiting for Val and Theo to show up so they could rehearse one more day. Noah came in earlier because he was bored at home and Mom was working, but now he wasn’t sure it’d been the smartest thing to do.
Truth be told, he was bitter since Kaj had lost his virginity.
Accepting that hisadmirationtoward Kaj was a lot more than he thought, felt like drowning and coming back to life. It’d destroyed the chemistry in his brain only to reconstruct it in such a way that he barely recognized his own heart. Had it always beat so wildly?
He couldn’t see or think about anyone that wasn’t Kaj. Every other human being greyed out in his eyes. Noah wanted to kiss, touch, and watch Kaj get hard for him. He wanted to hear his name when Kaj moaned. The desire was so all-consuming it was absurd. It didn’t matter whether Kaj was dating someone or not, the realization that he would never be more than a friend to him stung. He had lost before he even had the chance to play the game.
It was the first time he felt something like this, equally exciting and painful, and he didn’t know how to deal with it.
“Hey, guys,” Jesper greeted them, blond ponytail swinging as he walked down the three steps to enter the garage. “Everything okay? You’re too silent. Did you fight?” He looked at them suspiciously as he strode toward the freezer.
“No, just waiting for the other two,” Kaj said.
“Cool.”
