All control left me, and I moaned—really freaking loudly. Lying on his back, he pressed his body against my side, moving the pillows so he was the one propping me up.
Anthony increased the friction inside me, putting pressure exactly where I needed it to find a violent release.
This time I was determined not to pull back. I wanted to reach that higher level of pleasure, whatever it was. I didn't even know what I was reaching for, but I knew it was there.
My head thrown back, I moaned low and throaty. “Elias, please bite me.”
He obliged, sliding his body under my chest from the side. I moved my hand to let him get into position. He sunk his teeth into the side of my breast.
Anthony must've been watching him, because as soon as Elias bit, Anthony increased the pressure and rhythm inside me.
It was an amazing feeling. His pressure put me over the top again and I screamed their names as I came.
My orgasm didn't seem to end. I rode a wave of pleasure.
“It's too much,” I said, panting. Elias nuzzled up to my neck and bit, giving me exactly what I needed. His bite took me over again. It was what he needed.
Elias licked my neck. “Are you up for more?”
I was exhausted and still completely turned on. “Yes. But... don't take your time.” I was getting tired.
He laughed and they helped me back onto my knees. Anthony sat back to watch, eyes heavy and sleepy. Elias wasted no time.
He set a furious pace. Every time his hips met mine, I cried out. Without the need for any extra stimulation, every jolt an overwhelming ecstasy.
He finished with a cry. Leaning over it, Anthony lifted me into his arms and carried me to the bathroom. I was deposited onto the toilet, as I always preferred.
I cleaned myself up as best I could while he ran a hot bath with lavender oils. We were already naked, so we sank into the tub as soon as it was full enough. It was perfectly sized for four people. We'd looked for a three-person tub when we built, but this one ended up being perfect, especially now that we would be adding Axoular to the mix.
“I'm sorry I've been distant,” I said, floating in the water. “I got caught up in my head. Axoular helped me get some perspective.”
“You've been through a lot,” Anthony said. “Anyone would get caught up in it sometimes.”
“Yeah, but I've been pretty wrapped up in it for a while. Five years, when it gets down to it.”
Elias grabbed my foot and began to give me a massage. “I don't think you've been that bad.”
“Eli, I've been so angry. Part of that was mourning, I think. And part was the betrayal from Peter. But a big chunk of it was me being stuck in my bad. I couldn't find my good.”
Anthony started rubbing the other foot. “What made you realize you were sinking into a depression?”
“I wouldn't call it depression. Situational depression, maybe. My mom dealt withchemicaldepression, and it had nothing to do with the situation.”
He nodded. “What changed your attitude?”
“Axoular. He's really good for me, guys.”
“We've noticed. He centers you. Elias seems to be your fun. You laugh with him.”
I lifted my head up out of the water and looked at Anthony. “You can't comfort me in the way you'd like to be able to, but you're still my comfort. And you're both my safety. I feel safe and at home with you.”
Laying my head back, I continued, “I don't know if I'll ever completely be okay with how it all went down, with the secrets and fabricated stories. But I love you both enough to move past it. I'm so sorry it took me so long to see it.”
“Riley, we'll all surely go through moments, days, months like that, where we get caught up in our emotions. You know more than we do, isn't that what marriage is about?”
I smiled at the ceiling while I floated. “Michael was good with that sort of thing, not me. I always got caught up in the emotions and he brought me back to a healing and happy place. He was good at it. I think Axoular is, too.”Basically, I'm on the crazy train and Michael was my conductor.
Sitting up, I grabbed my shampoo. “I was mourning Michael too, these months. He's definitely dead, and I had to accept that before I could truly move on with you two and Axo.”
