“Holy fuck,” I whispered.
Panic set in.Can I get back? What did I see on the way here? Was that the Goddess's domain? It scared the shit out of me. Next time, I have to close my eyes. Would there be a next time? Was I stranded here?
“Calm the fuck down!” I told myself.
I closed my eyes and concentrated on the room I had just left. I saw the bare walls and the three chairs. I saw Rath and Mistress Lectia. I willed myself to be there and felt the world spin around me again. This time, I kept my eyes closed. I only opened them when the shivering on my skin stopped.
Rath and Lectia stood before me, both wearing panicked expressions that quickly turned into relief.
“That was fucking amazing!” I shouted.
Then I fell back into the void.
Chapter Thirty-Seven
I came to in my bed. As I blinked, I became aware of a conversation happening nearby.
“He doesn't want that, Xaedren,” Rath said. “And as much I want him, I won't pressure him into it. You should respect his wishes too. You say you love him.”
“I do love him!” Xaedren roared.
“Shh! He needs his rest.”
“Don't shush me. I know what Ember needs better than you.”
“Look, I'm sorry I said you weren't the best man for him. I was jealous, all right?”
Xaedren grunted.
“Ember loves you. I saw it. I fucking felt it, Xaedren. I saw everything he is, and it was so beautiful . . . I can't . . . fuck. I can't put it into words.”
“As beautiful as you are?” I whispered as I turned toward the men.
“Ember!” Rath exclaimed.
Both men rushed to the bed.
I sat up and crawled to the side, then slid my legs over it and sat up. They stood before me—the men I loved. “Fuck,” I whispered. “She's got me. She fucking got me.”
“What are you talking about?” Xae asked.
“The Goddess. She showed me that this might not be the most horrible thing that could happen to me.” I grimaced and stood up. “Xae, I'm sorry.” I took his hand. “You were trying to do the right thing, and I pushed you away for it. But I never stopped loving you or believing in us. In fact, I thought I was doing it for us.” Then I looked at Rath and took his hand, forming a bridge between the men. “Rath, I'm sorry for pushing you away too. I've loved you from the beginning. I've just been too proud to admit it.” Looking from man to man, I asked, “Are you sure you love me enough to accept each other? Because I can't cause either of you any pain. That would kill me.”
Xaedren and Rath looked at each other. Something unspoken passed between them, and they nodded. Then they pounced.
I cried out as the men took me backward, onto the bed. Their hands slid over me, caressing me as they undressed me. Then their mouths found mine—first Xaedren, then he turned me toward Rath. Kissing Rath in front of Xae felt wrong for a fraction of a second. And then it felt very right.
Maybe that was because Xaedren's hand found my cock while it was happening.
I groaned into Rath's mouth as Xae kissed his way over my chest, stopping to suck on my right nipple. Rath eased back from my mouth and followed Xae's lead, coasting down my neck to my left nipple. As the men sucked at me, I stroked their hair and writhed between their hard bodies.
“Take off your clothes,” I panted. “Please.”
The men,mymen, pulled back and sat up. Watching me, they undressed, tossing their garments aside carelessly. I drank in the sight of Xae, whose body I hadn't seen since the beach. But then I saw Rath. He looked graceful compared to Xaedren's bulk, but he was slabbed with lean muscle and that power radiated from him. His smooth chest—a Varraen trait—was just as sculpted as Xae's, its muscles leading my eye down to the ripple of his abdomen, then his lean hips. Amid a nest of raven curls, his cock emerged, hard and true, the blushing tip weeping for me. It was all I could do to keep from diving for it.
And a few seconds later, I was glad I had controlled myself. Because the men went for my cock instead. Xae pushed between my thighs, spreading them wide, while Rath laid on his belly and propped himself over me. Moving in harmony, they nuzzled my shaft, stroking it between them, their faces close enough to kiss. Then Xae let Rath have the first taste.
I cried out as Rath's hot mouth slid down my length, my hand automatically weaving into his thick hair. He moaned, the sound becoming a physical sensation on my sensitive skin, and Xae moaned with him, his searing stare locked on Rath's lips. One large hand went to the back of Rath's head, Xae's fingers weaving through mine before pushing Rath down on my cock. Rath made an aroused sound as he took me deeper.
