We’d said we loved each other. He was my missing piece I’d tried to ignore, but I’d felt his absence on a cellular level. Now we were moving in together because we could, and one day we might get married. Because he was my person.
“You are my person,” I said firmly.
“You’re my person, too.”
I lowered my head and nuzzled the junction of his thigh. He smelled clean and masculine, and my mouth watered for some reason. All of these things were so new to me, all these feelings and urges to do sexual things. There was a disconnect I didn’t quite understand, but I guessed it came from the whole asexuality thing.
I wanted to do these things with and to River, but I still didn’t think I would feel the need I felt tonight that often.
It felt natural to move my head to the side and lick a stripe up River’s erection. It flexed under my tongue, and I could see precome dripping from the tip. I smiled. I couldn’t believe it was me who had this effect on him.
Since his scent had done something very visceral to me, I moved back down, nuzzling his groin and inhaling.
“Babe,” River moaned.
“Yeah?” I grinned at him, then licked his balls. “What’s up?”
He made a frustrated sound and lifted his head. “Me. I’m up.” He gestured at his cock. “As much as I love this, I have to get off before my balls explode.”
Chuckling, I tugged at said balls. “They do seem tight.”
“Theyare!”
Part of me wanted to lick him more, get even lower to taste him, but it wasn’t time yet. I didn’t want to freak out, and I knew my brain enough to know that sometimes in new situations, the slightest thing could derail my whole brain space and I’d be unable to go on.
I kissed the head of his cock and licked my lips, curious about the taste. I was most of the way hard now, and I climbed up enough to let River feel my cock against his.
“What do you want to do with these?” I asked, rocking my hips against him a little.
“Can I touch you? Like you did me?”
His tone was so careful, that I sighed without meaning to. “I’m new and I’m ace, but I’m not breakable, River. I’m an adult who knows when to say no to something. I knowwe’renew, but I wouldn’t be in this situation if I didn’t have complete trust in you.”
He frowned slightly. “Yes, but consent is important to me. I want to make sure I don’t ever take yours for granted or push against your limits.”
I kissed him softly. “You do understand that I’m so new to this, that I don’t even know where my limits are, and that I’ll have to learn them with you? To add the fact that I don’t always feel like I’m that interested in anything sexual, it’s…” I shrugged.
“Okay, but promise me you’ll never let me do something you don’t want?” His gaze was so serious, so damn vulnerable, that I understood something like that had happened to him, but in reverse. I had to keep in mind that he was a nurse, too. I didn’t even want to imagine what he might’ve seen at work.
I cupped his cheek and looked him in the eye. “I would never do anything to intentionally harm you, either.”
He nodded seriously, then lifted his head to peck my lips. “Now, roll over.”
I chuckled and did as told, narrowly missing hitting any part of myself on the slanting ceiling. Then I shuffled toward the middle of the bed and settled down.
River did what I had done at first, except he sat next to me. Being touched like that, his gentle hands running over my skin, felt indescribable. Goosebumps spread over my skin, and my breathing picked up.
I was harder than I’d ever been, and certainly more interested in doing something with that erection.
When River made eye contact and slowly leaned down to suck the tip of my cock between his lips, I let out a shocked gasp, bucking into his mouth on instinct.
He pulled back before I could choke him, clearly having anticipated what would happen, and smirked.
“Good?”
“Do that again? Please?” I panted.
He took hold of my cock and slowly took me into his mouth, keeping one of his arms across my hips so I couldn’t move too much. On the next downward motion, I felt him swallow around me, and my head rolled back.
