An odd surge of gratefulness washed over Seth. Dev understood Leaf and Seth better than probably anyone Seth had ever met. The fact that Leaf had already opened up to him, even a little, about his childhood was massive.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. His story is… I don’t even know. He’ll tell you himself at some point if you want to know. But he’s been to therapy a lot when he was younger. All his childhood, really. Rain suggested therapy again, and Dev said the same thing. I think… maybe it’s time?”
Leaf’s body twisted against Seth as he turned his head awkwardly to look at him. He looked at Leaf in return. “You know I’ll back you up 100 percent, right? I think it’s a good idea. You could ask Rosalie if she knows anyone who specializes with….” He didn’t quite know how to finish the sentence.
“Postcult stuff? Yeah. I think that’d be good. I don’t know any other ‘survivors’ in Colorado, so I can’t ask them for recommendations. And I’d rather not go dig out info on the internet. I don’t….”
When Leaf trailed off, Seth knew it was about his need of privacy. He didn’t want to have to socialize with people with similar pasts to his own. It just wasn’t something he could handle well.
It was different when he met up with people on his travels, but Seth didn’t think Leaf could handle the strain of the reminder in his day-to-day life. Personally, Seth thought that was part of why Leaf and Rain did so well separately despite their relationship being so close.
“Wanna fool around?” Leaf asked, reaching a hand down to cup Seth’s asscheek.
He chuckled. “I suppose I could be persuaded.”
Making love with Leaf felt like breathing. Neither of them had to think about it—they just followed each other’s cues, and sense memory filled in the rest.
The taste of Leaf’s skin felt like home to Seth. Sometimes, when he’d had a rough day, just a kiss or even a hug with the chance to inhale Leaf’s scent could make all the difference. With how sensual Leaf was, despite all his occasionally crude language, Seth often wondered how they managed the times apart as well as they did.
They made out for a while, just groping and tasting each other. Then Seth pulled away and turned on the bed into a sixty-nine position. He couldn’t give Leaf a blowjob, but he could do other things, and he knew Leaf loved to give him oral despite almost never getting it himself.
Reciprocation was an important factor when it came to sex. Once, he’d felt wrong about letting Leaf do this for him, without ever getting the same in return. He’d gotten over it, mostly. Maybe he thought like Leaf was getting the short straw, but since he didn’t complain, Seth could let go of his rules and his control sometimes.
He took hold of Leaf’s cock, enjoying the weight of it in his hand. Leaf was well-endowed; not massive but still bigger than average. To find someone who could give him oral and not choke wasn’t easy, and from what Leaf—and Dev—had told him, their new third could manage just fine.
Seth groaned when Leaf licked at his cockhead. The way Leaf cupped his balls and tugged at them a bit roughly made Seth grunt, and he was pretty sure his cock dribbled into Leaf’s mouth.
He nuzzled Leaf’s groin, enjoying the concentrated scent. He knew exactly where to touch Leaf to get him off fast, but he didn’t want to do that right then. Instead, he settled in, his head resting on Leaf’s thigh as he licked and suckled on his balls, somehow managing to keep his weird issues in check.
Then again, his gag reflex seemed to only reach to anything too far in his mouth, and the texture of semen was one of the worst things for him. He hated that, because he would’ve loved to be able to do it all, but he just couldn’t.
So he used his mouth in other ways, jerking Leaf off leisurely while enjoying the blowjob he was getting at the same time.
When Leaf doubled up his efforts, he nibbled at Leaf’s foreskin, gently tugging it with his teeth, knowing it would bring his partner closer to the edge. He could tell Leaf was getting close, so he squeezed the tip of his cock and pressed the edge of his thumbnail against Leaf’s slit.
Leaf moaned out loud and seemed to forget everything he was doing for a few seconds, but the vibration around Seth’s cock from that moan made him join in the sounds.
“Fuck, so close,” Seth panted.
He tugged on Leaf’s cock faster, sucked one of his balls into his mouth, and made sure to aim his cock away from his face. He pulled at the sac with some firm suction, and the cock in his hand erupted. Leaf’s whole body twitched a bit, and Seth grinned. He loved when he could make Leaf do that.
As soon as he could, Leaf went right back to sucking Seth, who flopped onto his back and just enjoyed the fast-as-hell ride to the edge. His orgasm punched out of him, making him curl up around Leaf’s head as he nearly jackknifed, and then fell right back onto the bed.
“That was so good,” he murmured when he had enough breath to do so.
“Mhmm….” Leaf grunted, then chuckled as he pulled Seth into a sleeping position again. “I’ma go clean up. Be right back.”
They never kissed after Leaf had blown Seth, because of his issues. Seth could also get queasy while touching cooling come, but at least that was extremely rare. It still made Leaf clean up fast after sex every time.
Frowning a bit at himself, Seth settled in and waited for Leaf to come back.
He reached for his phone from the bedside table and smiled when he discovered a good-night message from Dev.
“That our boy?” Leaf asked as he climbed back under the covers.
“Uh-huh.” Seth sent him a message back from both of them. “He says good night and to dream about him.”
