“I’m a motherfucking Victorian maiden, aren’t I?”
Adrian threw his head back and laughed, until Ben thwacked him in the shoulder.
“‘S not funny,” he murmured.
The way Adrian’s eyes twinkled at him though, yeah. It was funny. Ben started to laugh then, and couldn’t stop until Adrian pulled him close and nuzzled his stomach. That took Ben from the amusement zone directly into arousal.
“You know I love you, right?” Adrian asked, his words almost muffled by the way he leaned into Ben’s lower belly.
“Yeah, I know. I love you, too.” He stepped back from Adrian’s gentle grasp and smiled. “Will you show me?”
Adrian told him to settle in the middle of the bed on his stomach.
“If it weirds you out, tell me and I’ll stop.”
Ben collected the pillow he’d come to think of as his under his head and tried to relax into the bed.
They had touched each other a lot. Cuddled and slept with their limbs tangled together. Sometimes Adrian had rubbed his feet when he was sore after a long day at work. One morning, he’d helped Adrian shave the stray hairs from his neck. Hell, they washed each other in the shower.
This seemed different. Adrian kissed his way down Ben’s shoulders and back, touching him everywhere in an almost reverent way, or so it felt to Ben. The scrape of Adrian’s stubble against his skin made goosebumps blossom everywhere.
After he’d gotten together with Adrian, Ben had researched gay sex. He’d watched quite a bit of porn, something he’d never really been that into before. He had a pretty good idea where this was heading, and he felt both excited and slightly… trembly. That was the only word he could give the feelings inside.
When Adrian finally started to massage his ass cheeks in his calloused artist’s hands, Ben let out a shuddering breath he hadn’t realized he was holding in.
“You okay, honey?” Adrian checked.
“Yeah,” Ben breathed out the word.
He could feel Adrian’s lips move into a smile against his ass, which was endearing.
“Good.”
Without further ado, Adrian used his grip to expose his hole, and just…looked at it?
A split second before Ben could become self-conscious and move, Adrian licked him right there. He didn’t have time to react, when the lick became more probing, followed by more licks andholy fuck was that sucking?
All thoughts escaped Ben when the nerve endings Adrian was setting alight started to sing. He felt twitchy and completely relaxed at the same time, it was like nothing he’d ever felt before.
At some point he started to hump the mattress a little bit, not even realizing it, before Adrian lifted his mouth off him and chuckled.
“Get on your hands and knees, honey,” he instructed, nipping at Ben’s ass before moving just enough to get to the lube in the bedside table.
Ben wasn’t sure his body would hold him up, and said as much to Adrian.
“Oh, just for the stretching. It’s easier this way. You can be on your back when I enter you.”
Adrian said it so casually, Ben didn’t really think twice about what exactly he was saying. When his brain tried to catch up, Ben blocked the frisson of something fear-like from entering his consciousness.
“You still okay?” Adrian asked, petting Ben’s side. “We can stop right now if you want to. It’s totally okay.”
Ben swallowed hard, then shook his head and looked at Adrian over his shoulder. “No. You said you’d show me.”
Smiling, Adrian moved closer to kiss him, then pulled back and opened bottle of lube.
“I’ll do this slowly, okay, it’s—”
“Please don’t,” Ben interrupted. “I’ll lose my nerve and—”
