• Wear red lipstick every day for a week
• Dance on a table
• Download a dating app and actually swipe
• Have morning sex before coffee
• Try a toy with someone watching
• Fall asleep still sweaty and tangled up with him
• Confess my fantasies to a complete stranger
• Sleep naked and not feel weird about it
• Figure out what my body actually likes in bed
• Send a nude without apologizing for it
• Sext until the phone dies
• Let someone go down on me until I cry
• Give a blowjob and take control until he begs
• Ride someone's face just because I want to
• Have sex against a wall, messy and desperate
• Let someone tie my wrists and take whatever they want
• Watch myself in a mirror while he's inside me
• Let a man talk filthy to me without flinching
• Get fucked on the kitchen counter
• A finger up the butt (on either person)
"This list just gets hornier as it goes on." I frown down at the paper.
"So what?" Jessa giggles. "It's great. A girl should have big plans in life."
"It feels like asking a lot. How am I supposed to find a guy to try all of these things with?"
"No one ever said you had to find one guy to try these out with." She squints, then points to an item. "You should see what's out there. You said you hadn't set up a Twinge account. So maybe start there. That would be a good first item to cross off."
"Yeah." I exhale, feeling pleasantly buzzed. "I could do that."
"You sure?"
"Yeah. It's probably the easiest thing on the list." I wrinkle my nose. "Don't kill me, but I think I need to crash. How are you still upright? You were up before me."
Jessa shrugs. "I only sleep four or five hours a night. Should I grab my coat and walk you home?"
"No, you stay. I'm going to be unconscious the second I hit my bed anyway." Walking the fourteen blocks home will help me sober up. Plus, it's the only hard cardio I get besides running around the arena all day. I'd rather eat cinnamon rolls than spend my life in a gym.
I hug Jessa goodbye and thank the other girls for having my back. Then I head out into the rain, letting the cold wake up my brain.
