But above all, I want to do it because I love her and I have dreamed of this for years.
“Yes,” I say, cupping her beautiful face. “It would be my absolute pleasure to make love to you.”
30
Natalia
Leo cups my face, and his expression is solemn as he peers into my eyes. “Before we do this, I need to know you are sure.” He sweeps his fingers across my face, igniting a flurry of delicious tremors. “This is dangerous. If Gino finds out—”
“He won’t.” I cut across him. “It’s a myth that girls always bleed their first time, and tons of little girls break their hymens riding horses or cycling. If he dares to challenge me, I will remind him I’m a medical student and spout a ton of statistics at him.”
I’m not worried about that.
Only losing myself completely in Leonardo Messina and never being able to come back from it.
Leo’s lips kick up at the corners, and my heart melts. “Always so fucking smart.”
“You are so beautiful when you smile,” I say, tracing my fingers through the stubble on his chin and cheeks. “And I love you so damn much.”
His lips press against mine, and I close my eyes, savoring the feel of his mouth and the way he tastes. A deep sense of contentment settles in my bones as we softly kiss. His fingers wind into my hair as he pulls back. “I love you,dolcezza.” His eyes hold mine in place. “I love you so much I don’t have the words to adequately describe it.” He stands, holding me up, and I wrap my legs around his waist and cling to his shoulders. “But I can show you.”
“Leo,” I whisper, dotting kisses all over his face as he carries me into his bedroom.
Nervous adrenaline flows through my veins as he sets me down on my feet. I came here with a plan, and I can scarcely believe he agreed. I have thought of nothing else since my conversation with Gino. Mama’s wisdom played a part too. I knew I couldn’t marry Gino without taking this one thing for myself.
For us.
That doesn’t mean I’m not nervous because I am. I want this with him. I want it badly, but I’m scared too.
“Don’t be nervous,” Leo says, reading my mind. He brushes his lips against mine as his hands land on my waist. “I will take care of you. I will ensure it is good for you.” He rubs my lower back through my dress. “I am going to worship every inch of you and make you feel things you have never felt before. I am going to prove how much I love you with every touch.” One hand comes to my face, and he tilts my chin up. “Okay?”
I nod, smiling. “I want this with you,” I whisper, dragging my fingers through his brown hair. “But I’ve never done it before, and I want you to enjoy it too.”
His face softens as he pulls me into his arms and holds me against his warm body. “Trust me, baby. I will enjoy it because this is everything I have desired for years.” We stare at one another, and the air sizzles with our usual chemistry. “You trusting me to do this means everything to me, Natalia.” He pecks my lips. “I am truly honored.” He kisses me again, and I’m arching into him, dying for more. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
His lips seal over mine again, and he deepens the kiss while his hands run up and down my back. Angling his head, he kisses me passionately, pulling my hips into his, ensuring I feel what it’s doing to him. His erection is solid against me, and lust coils in my belly. I grind against him, exploring the hard planes of his back when my hands slip under his shirt. He moans into my mouth, and I tighten my arms around him, pressing myself to him with ardent longing.
He pulls the zipper on my dress down, stepping aside to let me shuck out of it. Standing before him in my lacy red underwear, I let him drink his fill before I grab the hem of his shirt and yank it up. My heart is beating to a new rhythm as he pulls it off, and I can only admire the view. He is broader and more ripped than the last time I saw him bare-chested with a thicker layer of dark hair that trails down under his sweatpants.
I place my hands on his chest, taking my time exploring every dip and curve.
“Fuck, Nat. You have no idea what your touch does to me,” he rasps, his voice heavy with desire.
“I do,” I pant when his fingers sweep up and down my sides. “Because it’s like that for me too.”
He unclips my bra, and I let it fall to the ground as my fingers slip under the band of his sweatpants and into his boxers. His cock is velvety soft, warm, and hard under my fingers, and saliva pools in my mouth.
Dropping to my knees, I tug on his sweats until he gets rid of the rest of his clothing, standing before me in all his naked glory. I had forgotten how big he is, and nerves fire momentarily at me again as I wonder how he’s going to fit inside me. My fingers trail a path up his muscular thighs, and I cup his heavy balls, gently fondling them.
“Fuck,” he hisses through clenched teeth. “That feels so good, but this is about you, baby. Get up on the bed.”
I shake my head. “This isn’t just about me. This is about us. If this is our only time, I want to experience everything.” My fingers curl around the base of his shaft as I lean forward, my tongue lapping at the moisture crowning at the tip of his cock. I look up at him, delighted to see such raw lust blazing from his eyes. I get an enormous thrill out of knowing I’m the one putting that look on his face. “I want to taste you again. It’s all I have thought about for years.”
The last time we did this, I had gently explored his hard-on and tentatively tasted him. Now, I want to do it properly. I know enough to have an idea of what to do. I know Leo will guide me and show me what he likes.
Pulling his foreskin down a little, I wrap my hand around the base of his dick, stroking him in firm pumps as I lick and suck on his shaft. My tongue glides up and down his hot skin, lapping against the veins while I continue to work him with my fingers. I look up at him as I lower my mouth down over his slickened length, trying to relax my mouth and my throat so I can take him in. I gag when he hits the back of my throat, and he eases out, but I shake my head, telling him not to withdraw fully.
