What in the hell was he planning on doing? I might not be as sexually adventurous as some, but even I knew the word red was a safe word. And that was something you used when you were doing kinky shit.
I was as vanilla as they came. I wouldn’t even consider myself a fancy version of vanilla, just plain store brand.
Was I up for whatever he’d planned?
Yes, because this was Owen, and I trusted him to push me past my boundaries but not so far I’d be permanently damaged.
No matter what I do to you, I don’t want you to react. You don’t speak unless you’re given permission. You don’t touch me until I tell you what I want you to do. Got it?
This is our fresh start, and we’re going to do things differently this time.
If the lights are out and you’re in my bed when I come out of the bathroom, you’re mine for the rest of the night. If this is too much, too fast, leave the light on and we’ll talk about it.
I swallowed hard as I re-read every line of his note. I crumpled it in my hand, intending to dispose of it so there was no evidence, but second-guessed myself. Before pulling the covers up to my hips, I smoothed the paper and neatly folded it. Later, I’d tuck it in my wallet so there would be a reminder that this hadn’t all been a crazy ass dream.
My entire body vibrated with anticipation and I punched down the pillows, trying to get comfortable. There was a stark contrast between the firm mattress and the squishy pillows that offered no support. I reached for the light, pressing my thumb against the switch. All it would take was a quick push and I’d be plunged into the unknown.
The room went eerily silent when Owen turned off the shower. Steam rolled out from under the bathroom door, fogging the entire room.
Was I ready for this?
Yeah, I totally was.
CHAPTERSEVEN
OWEN
This waseither the best idea I’d ever had, or it was going to scare the shit out of Tyler and I’d walk out to a fuck you note scribbled on the bottom of the instructions I’d left for him before I jumped in the shower. I was hoping for the former while trying to convince myself I’d go on as I had before yesterday if it was the latter.
All day I’d been trying to figure out how I was supposed to tell the first guy I’d ever jerked off thinking about, that sweet, slow lovemaking wasn’t enough for me. I mean, I wasn’t opposed to it for hook-ups and a change of pace, but nothing got me off harder than playing out some fantasies together.
The ground beneath us might be shaky, but it was clear Tyler needed to get out of his head, otherwise he’d talk us right into the friend zone. That realization led my brain down a rabbit hole of trying to figure out how I could make him act instead of talk, introduce him to my kinky side without scaring him, and giving us a fresh start without the hurt of the past.
Water dripped down my legs, pooling on the tiled bathroom floor. The water was still running behind me, giving Tyler every second possible to make his decision. The longer I could still see the stream of light coming from under the door, the more I prepared myself to be proven a fool.
He was the good guy, the responsible one, a bit stuffy compared to my typical tastes, and gave me the impression he wasn’t used to anything other than missionary sex and perfunctory kisses. With any luck, that would change tonight.
Feeling guilty for wasting the B&B’s water, I turned off the taps and dried off. I fumbled more than once while trying to go through my bedtime routine by the light of the phone, but I needed to know what was going on in the other room.
Seconds before I told myself I would go out there regardless of what Tyler had decided, the light from under the door disappeared. I tipped my head back, blowing out a sigh of relief.
I opted against swiping a condom out of my toiletries bag but did grab the lube. I didn’t want Tyler feeling like I expected him to put out the first time we were together. If the night progressed that far, it wouldn’t destroy the moment to grab it later.
But burying myself inside of his tight body wasn’t my end goal this time. It would truly be enough for me if I got to explore his trim body, giving shape and texture to the pictures in my mind. I’d be overjoyed to wake up tomorrow morning knowing if Tyler was the type to hold back as he came, or if it was possible to drive him so out of his mind that he lowered his inhibitions and begged me to take him further.
The security light in the parking lot cast a soft glow over the room. I leaned against the doorframe, watching as Tyler settled on the bed. I should have remembered that he was a stomach sleeper. Seeing the gentle swell of his ass beneath the crisp white sheet had me rock hard. I took a step closer, waiting to see if he’d react.
His body tensed, but that was the only indication he knew I was there. He inhaled sharply when I kneeled on the edge of the bed. I let me towel fall aside as I approached him. My hard cock swayed as I crawled toward him.
“You surprise me, baby,” I whispered, scraping my fingernail down the length of his spine to see how he’d react. His back arched slightly, and even in the dim light I could see his muscles bunch with the effort of trying to obey my instructions. “In the best ways. You’ve been very brave today, facing things I know scare the shit out of you, and now I’m going to reward you for your good behavior.”
Tyler whimpered when I slipped my hand under the edge of the sheets and cupped his ass.
“You’re wound so tight. Part of me wonders how long it’s been since you gave into your need and let someone fuck you.” I bent down, my lips following the same path my finger had taken a moment ago. “That’s what you really need, isn’t it? But knowing you, you think you have to be the one in control all the time so it’s hard for you to feel so vulnerable. Am I right?”
“Yes.” His response came out on a desperate sigh. “Please, Owen. I need this. Need you.”
“Mmm, I love hearing you beg when I haven’t even done anything to you yet.” I licked from the base of his neck to the small of his back. His skin was salty and musky, proving that he hadn’t wasted time showering before he came over here. Good. I loved that he wasn’t thinking about being proper. “But I want to take my time with you tonight. If we didn’t have to get up early tomorrow, I’d worship your body until the sun came up.”
