“Oh, I can, can I?” I slipped my hands under the hem of the sweatshirt I’d given him. It killed me to take my time, but Tanner was worth it. He scrunched up his nose, obviously irritated when I slid my body off of him. “I want to make this last.”
“But, Ryan,” Tanner whined as I flicked a finger over his nipple. “If you keep doing that, I'm going to come before you even touch my dick.”
“Wrong,” I barked out. I flipped him on to his stomach once he was completely bare and laid my body over his. “First, you don't set the pace. You’ll hold back because you want to be good for me.”
He whimpered when I bit the base of his neck.
“Second, what are you supposed to call me when it's just us?”
“I'm sorry, Daddy. Please, I'm dying here. You’ve had me hard all day,” he rambled, writhing as I ground my dick against his crease. I hated staying clothed, but I knew as soon as I was naked, I’d want to be inside of him.
“We haven't even been together all day,” I reminded him.
“Close enough,” he complained. “I thought you said a Daddy's job is to take care of his boy.”
“It is,” I confirmed.
Tanner shoved a hand between his body and the mattress. “I have something I need you to take care of. It hurts.”
“You're going to hurt a lot more if you keep pushing me,” I warned him. “I thought I'd get a little payback, first.”
“Payback?” His voice cracked and his muscles tensed.
“I don't think it's fair that you got to see and touch me, even though I was too out of it to reciprocate,” I explained. I had another idea for helping absolve Tanner of any lingering guilt. If I'd known what he did that night had been eating away at him, I would've addressed it much sooner, no matter how uncomfortable it might have been. I trailed a finger down Tanner's spine. “But maybe I'm the lucky one. You were cute back then, but a little scrawny.”
Tanner bucked his hips. “Gee, Daddy, you really know the way to a boy's heart.”
I smacked him on the hip. “Come on, sweetheart, you complained all the time about how you couldn't put on any weight no matter how much you ate. But your body has filled out nicely.”
I straddled Tanner's legs and scooted back as I began massaging his shoulders. His back arched as my fingers worked the tension out of his upper back. He was still slender, probably always would be, but he was toned. I could stare at his body all day, memorizing every inch of him.
“Please, Ryan,” Tanner begged. As much as I wanted to hear him call me Daddy again, I wasn’t going to force the issue. It was something new to him, and maybe it was wrong of me to push him into something we wouldn’t have time to explore fully, especially when it came to sex. “I need you. Been waiting my whole life for this.”
Me too, baby.
Fuck, but I had. He might be younger than me, but he was the person who opened my eyes to my own truth. He was the man every other was measured up to and found lacking. My dick pressed painfully against my zipper and I couldn’t wait another second to strip for him. As fun as it would be to prolong things, the sooner we took the edge off, the sooner we could move on to round two. Because, whether it was right this fucking minute or an hour from now, the first time I sunk into his body, I wasn’t going to last long.
I eased myself off the bed, dragging my fingers down his back to the swell of his ass. My thumbs dipped into his crease, spreading him, exposing his hole. Every time his muscles clenched, my dick spasmed, urging me ahead.
“Don’t leave me,” he whimpered, twisting to his side and curling his hand around my wrist. “I’m sorry I forgot. I’ll do better.”
“Oh baby, I’m not upset with you.” His eyes fluttered closed as I cupped his cheek. I pressed a line of gentle kisses from his forehead to his nose, and finally to his mouth. I definitely needed him to put on some gloss for me later so I could finally taste the combination of him with an added layer of sweetness.
I grasped his chin tightly, forcing him to keep eye contact. “I know what I said, but I don’t want you worrying about that right now. I want you to have fun. Nothing you do or say will be wrong. Do you understand?”
He nodded, sucking his bottom lip between his teeth. His eyes shone as if he was about to cry. “I want you to have fun, too. And you made it sound like being a Daddy is a huge part of your life. You shouldn’t have to change for me.”
“I’m not changing,” I promised him. Tanner flipped onto his back and licked his lips as I shimmied out of my pants and kicked off my shoes. I debated leaving my shirt on just to tease him, but I wanted to feel his skin against mine. “This is all new for you, and even the best boys need time to get used to the dynamic. For now, we can keep that as something that’s outside of bed if that makes things easier for you, okay?”
The words felt like a punch to the gut. Right now, was all we were guaranteed to have together.
“Don’t look like that.” Tanner slid his palm against mine, tangling our fingers and pulling me on top of him. “We can’t change anything about the past or the future. Stay here with me in the present.”
“Could you get any more perfect for me?” I kissed my way down his chest, pausing just long enough to flick my tongue over his nipples. Learning what made a new partner lose their mind was always fun, and with Tanner, it was even better. He couldn’t hide anything from me. I’d seen every emotion possible cross his features throughout the years, and I could tell he was barely holding onto control. “I’m glad things worked out for me to be the one to give you a ride.”
“I’d like a different ride now,” Tanner teased. He dug his heels into my ass, holding me tight when I lost my balance and fell on top of him. Our precum combined to slick the way as his hips bucked off the bed, grinding our cocks together. I nearly scolded him until I realized this was how things were supposed to be for our first time. Both of us on even footing, with the promise of more later. “When I was younger, I wished it could be you. I thought about you when I jerked off. I knew that you wouldn’t treat me like I was fragile, but you’d also make sure I was taken care of.”
“I’llalwaysprotect you,” I promised, even though I had no business making such declarations. I wiggled my way down his body again, kissing my way around the head of his cock without touching it. He whined as he threaded his fingers in my hair, trying to get my lips around his shaft.
