Okay, how much noiseImade. Daddy was all about whispering in my ear as he pounded into me. The only time he got loud was when he came, and even then, he usually buried his face in the pillow next to my head to muffle his shouts.
I didn’t want him to be quiet anymore.
“Hey, whatever you’re thinking about, it can wait.” He chuckled, nodding to my phone. “Make the call. Otherwise, I’m sure we can find a corner around here somewhere for you to think about what you want to say before you talk to him.”
“No, thank you, Daddy.” I smiled up at him and fluttered my eyelashes, hoping he’d let me off the hook.
“Call. We’re not leaving this room until I know you’re not going to pretend you called him and it went to voicemail.” Damn. Sometimes, it sucked to be with someone who had your number. It wasn’t that I wanted to lie to him, but Ireallydidn’t want to kiss Tanner’s ass.
“Fine. I’ll call.” I slumped back in the chair as I unlocked my phone, holding it up so he could see that I was indeed scrolling to Tanner’s contact. I pressed the call button and Daddy kissed the top of my head. The door closed behind me as the call connected.
“Holy shit, he lives,” Tanner scoffed. He didn’t give me a chance to even say hello before he laid into me. “Seriously, dude. What in the fuck was that shit? You don’t get to move to the other side of the country and then ghost me. I was worried shitless that something had happened to you and I’d never know.”
“I’m sure word would have gotten back to you.” People here thought I could be dramatic at times, but Tanner was worse than Sam and I combined. “I’ve been…busy.”
Tanner snorted. “So I’ve heard. Do you know what I’m going to have to do to thank Ryan for tracking you down for me?”
“No, what?” Ryan didn’t strike me as they type who would demand favors for doing something to ease his boyfriend’s mind. I scowled, wondering if the wrong one of us was worried right now.
“I don’t fucking know, but you can bet it’s going to be something big. He told me you were naked and out of it when he found you. Said you couldn’t even walk on your own.”
“Yep, pretty much.” I chipped away at the polish at the base of my nails. It was time to repaint them, anyway. “But it’s not like that and fuck him very much for making it sound like something sinister. I’d just had my world rocked and my legs were wobbly. Daddy was carrying me to the aftercare lounge so I could have a few minutes before getting dressed and going back out in the club.”
“Whoa, there is so fucking much there to unpack,” Tanner interrupted. “Daddy? Sex club? Aftercare? What sort of shit have you been getting up to when I’m not around to keep an eye on you?”
“Nothing I wouldn’t have done back home if I hadn’t been paranoid about who I might run into,” I told him. “It’s fucking amazing out here, Tanner. I can wear whatever I want, and Daddy—John, that’s his name—loves spoiling both sides of me. We even have our own little code to help him know if I’m feeling more masc or femme each day.”
“Yeah, so how about we start there?” He really needed to quit interrupting me. If he’d just let me talk, I could make him see he had nothing to worry about.
“Where?” Playing dumb seemed like the best tactic.
“Since when are you into Daddy kink?” Ah, yes, the elephant he tried to hide in his bedroom before Nana got hurt. I regretted not saying something to him sooner; if I had, maybe he wouldn’t have struggled so much with tapping into that side of himself, too. Because I had a feeling Ryan would be a good, if overprotective as fuck, Daddy.
“Since forever,” I deadpanned. “But until John, I didn’t know it was something I’d ever get to have. It was always one of my go-to porn folders, but that was it.”
“Isn’t it weird? You know, calling someone Daddy, but wanting them to fuck you, too?” My chest ached and a lump of guilt grew in my throat. When I’d come out here and kept on with my life, he hadn’t had anyone to talk to about what he was going through with Ryan.
“No weirder than a guy calling me baby,” I explained. “It’s the same thing, but it’s not. Listen, we both know what my childhood was like, so I can’t say I’d have the same issues you might, but it’s actually really nice.”
“Tell me. I want to understand. I need to, before I decide what I’m going to do.” His voice cracked on the last part. I swear, if he was thinking aboutnotcoming out here because Ryan was kinky, I’d have my ass on a plane to drag him back here with me. He claimed he couldn’t make a move yet because Nana needed him, but that was a load of crap. The worst that would happen would be the rest of his shittastic family would have to get off their pedestals to run errands for her or take her to appointments.
“Calling him Daddy is easy, because even when I was trying to give him the cold shoulder, he was taking care of me. It’s not even all about giving me presents or kinky sex,” I clarified, because that was the part people struggled with the most. They got hung up on how it sounded in the bedroom without considering everything that went on the rest of the days and nights. “Even if he’s not sleepy yet, he’ll climb into bed with me and let me curl up next to him, and he’ll read on his phone. In the mornings, he helps me get ready to start the day. He brings me breakfast and makes sure I don’t skip lunch.”
And sometimes, he makes you make the calls you don’t want to.He was going to have such a fun time with the I told you so I’d earned.
“Having a Daddy is like having a boyfriend who’s happiest when they’re taking care of you,” I continued. Footsteps echoed off the hall outside the door, so I lowered my voice. “Seriously, Tanner. It would be so much easier for you to see how good you could have it if you quit hiding at Nana’s house.”
“I’m not—”
“Bullshit. Don’t even tell me you’re not hiding because you’re scared everything’s going to fall apart,” I scolded him. “Remember, I know you. You’re the guy who couldn’t get involved with anyone because you’ve always been hung up on Ryan. And now that you have him, you’re scared of doing anything because you think you can’t be who he needs. But you are. Seriously, Tanner, I could see how worried he was for you painted all over his face last night. I’m lucky he didn’t demand Daddy spank me for what I put you through.”
“Okay, that might be a step too far,” Tanner quipped. “No matter what, I’m not sure the whole Daddies insisting on punishment for anyone other than their own boyfriend will be okay with me.”
“I was teasing.”Mostly.“But seriously, when are you going to get your ass out here? I miss you. And I want you to meet my friends out here. They’ll be a lot better about answering your questions than I will.”
“Fine. I’ll think about it,” he grumbled. “Happy now?”
“Not as happy as I’ll be once you get off the plane so you can kick my ass in person,” I teased. Now that I’d done what Daddy expected of me, and Tanner hadn’t torn into me too bad, I was eager to get off the phone. Tanner and I could talk again soon, and wewouldbecause I wasn’t letting him keep putting off what he needed to do to get his own shit in order. “I hate to cut this short, but John’s brother is making lunch. I might have been a bit of a dick this morning, so I probably owe him an apology, too.”
