fully aware of that, sweetheart. That doesn’t mean you don’t deserve someone who will take you out
to a nice dinner so we can get to know one another in a more organic way. You’re a beautiful man,
and I’m honored you’re even willing to give me a chance. Can I take you to dinner on Monday?”
“I’d love that.”
When I stood, I pulled him upright with me. “May I hug you?”
“Absolutely.” He sniffled as I pulled him into my arms and hummed as I kissed the side of his
head. “Thank you for accepting me.”
“You never need to thank me for that, any more than I would need to thank you for being okay with
me being a grumpy old man.” Okay, so I wasn’t particularly grumpy, but there was a significant age
difference between us. If he was okay with that, we’d already gotten past the first big hurdles.
5
Sam
Monday came and went without a date. I felt bad, but I couldn’t do it. Every time I tried getting ready
to go, my mind conjured up yet another worst-case scenario about how I’d make a total fool of myself
and Theron would never want to see me again. No matter how many times I reminded myself that
William said he was a great guy or that he knew about me and still wanted to see me, I couldn’t do it.
Putting myself out there to date was even harder than coming out had been.
Theron hadn’t thought anything of it when I told him I was behind on my schoolwork. He even told
me I was a good boy for prioritizing my education. That made me feel even worse because it was a
half-truth. I didn’t deserve his kind words when I’d lied to him.
Maverick0808: You’re an idiot.
Sammy1995: Tell me something I don’t know.
Maverick0808: I think you’ve underestimated him. You’re still giving Anthony power over your
happiness. He doesn’t deserve that.
Sammy1995: I am not. This isn’t about him.
Maverick0808: Bullshit. It’s totally about him. You know I love the hell out of you, but you need
to pull your head out of your ass before it’s too late. CALL HIM.
Sammy1995: It’s probably already too late. And what would I say?
Maverick0808: $20 says it’s not. Ask him if you can set a new date. And this time, don’t punk
out. GTG. I expect an update after work.
