“Ineedthis,” he admitted, his voice threaded with desire.
“That's what I hoped you’d say.” I breathed out a sigh of relief and felt the tension in my shoulders ease. The elevators closed behind us. I pulled Zach against my side, not giving him room to escape.
“Do you remember what I told you to do when we got home?” He nodded. “That wasn't an answer. How are you supposed to respond when you're asked a direct question?”
His body tensed against mine. “Yes, Sir.”
I patted his chest. “That's my good boy. While the two of you get cleaned up, I’ll get everything set up for today.”
“Okay.” I watched as Zach focused on taking in a breath and then slowly letting it out. He repeated the motion the entire climb to our floor.
“You still with us?” Daniel asked as the doors began to open at our floor.
“Can't back out now,” Zach said to no one in particular. “Need to see this through. You know what it's like.”
I actually didn’t know what it felt like to have as much self-loathing as he’d seemed to battle for so long. I wasn’t out to people, but that was a personal choice, not because I feared I’d be disowned or worse. I’d never lived with anyone who told me it made me less of a man to be attracted to men. My heart broke when I thought about what life must be like for Zach and, in a twisted way, I understood why he was the way he was.
I wrapped my arms around Zack's waist, pulling him against me. “In case I forget to say it later, I'm proud of you. I know this is new and scary.”
“But I want it,” Zach admitted. “Wanted it for a long time, but I was so damn scared.”
“That's completely normal,” I said at the same time Daniel said, “You have nothing to be scared about, Zach.”
I narrowed my eyes, silently warning Daniel to be careful with what he said. The last thing Zach needed was to feel like we were minimizing the distress he felt over admitting who he was. I followed Daniel to our door, my hand shoved firmly in Zach's back pocket. He didn’t pull away from me, and that felt like progress.
“Go take your shower,” I instructed him. “I'll have Daniel bring you a change of clothes when you’re done.”
I was stunned silent when Zach spun around, crashing his lips against mine. As soon as my lips parted, he pressed his tongue into my mouth. There was nothing for me to do other than wrap an arm around his waist. I shoved him against the wall, as much to steady myself as keep him from falling. I reached out to Daniel,needinghim to be a part of this moment. He gave my fingers a squeeze, silently reassuring me he wasn’t upset that Zach had kissed me first.
There would be time for them later, and I intended to make sure they both walked away with lips swollen from kissing and hopefully with beard burn on Daniel’s too perfect complexion. It would be easy to get off while directing the two of them how to touch one another.
“Thank you for this,” he whispered when he broke the kiss. “I might tell you I hate you tomorrow, but don't believe anything I say.”
“Don't worry about me,” I assured him. “I know you think I have my life sorted out, but I’ve been where you are. I'd be more surprised if you didn't have regrets tomorrow morning. But know this…” I leaned in, pressing my lips to the corner of Zach's mouth. “I can be relentless when I want something. And right now, what I want is to make you feel good. It's not going to happen today, but at some point, I would love nothing more than to have you spread out naked in my bed, Daniel waiting for me to tell him how I want him to fuck you.”
“It can't just be about us,” Daniel protested. I pulled him closer so all three of us were connected.
“It's not. I want both of you, but only when the time is right.”
“When will that be?” The hazel of Zach’s eyes was nonexistent around his pupils, blown with arousal. “Want both of you fucking me. Please, Colin, don't make a wait.”
“You're going to be the death of me,” I protested. “I’m not going to rush this with you. I’m going to make you see you’re worth more than a quick, dirty fuck.”
I led Zach to the bathroom door, dropping my bag to the ground. His eyes followed. He leaned forward, trying to peek inside. “If you want to know what toys I bought for you, you'd better get that pretty little ass in the shower.”
“Yes, Sir.” He stood taller as he flicked open the button on his jeans. I knew he was being sarcastic but hearing him call meSirwould never not make my cock ache.
“On second thought, don’t bother getting dressed. Come out in nothing but your towel,” I instructed him.
“Will you be naked, too?” he asked as his gaze drifted the length of my body.
I chuckled. “Eventually. But first, you need to show me you can follow simple instructions.”
“I want to make you proud of me.” Zach's eyes grew wide as soon as the admission slipped past his lips, and I knew that was something he had never meant for me to hear.
“I already am,” I promised him. “I'm not sure we'll ever understand how special the gift you've given me today is. I can't make any promises for the future, but I will do everything in my power to never take you for granted.”
Zach slipped into the bathroom, closing the door behind him. I stood there staring, zoning out until I heard the water running. I closed my eyes, letting my head fall forward until my chin was tucked against my chest. These men were trusting me to guide them through whatever happened today, but they had no clue how nervous I was. I needed a few minutes to get my shit together.
