To hammer home the point that I wanted the two of us on even footing for tonight, I dropped to my knees as gracefully as I could. The towel fell to the floor, offering the slightest bit of padding for my knees. My fingers fumbled around as I undid the button on his jeans. I looked up at him, my eyes wide, and blinked slowly a couple of times.
“Fuck, Chase.” Jay bit his lip and threw his head back as he groaned. “You’re impossible to say no to, do you know that?”
“It’s only part of my charm,” I quipped. “Can I suck you, Jay?”
I’d almost called him Daddy out of habit. Even though it hadn’t even been a full day since he’d given me the green light to say it out loud, that was how I’d always thought of Jay in my mind. And I’d jerked off more times than I could count to fantasies of havingDaddytake me.
I deflated a bit when Jay took me by the arm and pulled me off the floor. He noticed my unease and combed his fingers through my hair, tugging gently so I would look at him. “You’re fucking beautiful. I’m going to let you do whatever you want, but not until we’re in my room. I don’t want tonight to be a bathroom fuck, where I bend you over the vanity and pound into that tight ass. I want to love you slowly, take my time to make sure it doesn’t hurt, and then hold you after both of us come.”
Bathroom sex had always sounded gross to me, but the way Jay talked about it, I really hoped that would be on the list of adventures we’d eventually have. I loved the idea of him being so overwhelmed with his desire that he couldn’t wait. My dick leaked a steady stream of precum as I followed him to the bedroom. Instead of obsessing over whether anal sex would live up to the hype, I focused on how I could turn the tables a little bit and be Daddy’s naughty boy. Being his sweet boy was fine, but it didn’t have to be all I was. Sometime, I would surprise Jay by doing something totally filthy and unexpected.
I was so caught up in trying to figure out how to shock Jay that I didn’t realize he’d stopped walking. The denim covering his butt was scratchy against myverysensitive skin. And yet, it felt good. I wrapped my arms around his waist, holding him against my chest as I ground my erection against his hip. He glanced over his shoulder, smirking when I slid a hand over his groin. “Did you need something, baby?”
“You,” I responded confidently, walking him toward the edge of the bed. When I spun him around, I wished I had my phone to capture the stunned look on Jay’s face. I quirked an eyebrow and laughed. “I don’t always need you to be so careful with me. I might like being little, but that doesn’t mean you need to treat me with kid gloves.”
“Is that a fact?” Jay wrapped an arm around the back of my thigh and tossed me on the bed. “I’m at a loss here, babe. You need to tell me what you want.”
“I thought I was supposed to be the one who was nervous,” I quipped, holding out my hands to him. He laced our fingers together, and I pulled him onto the bed over me. He was careful to not smother me. “In case you need some guidance, I want you to fuck me tonight, Jay. There’s no Ash and Daddy, just Jayden and Chase. Equals. Lovers. Partners. Treat me the way you would anyone else you’ve fucked.”
“That’s not going to be possible,” he vowed. “Everyone before you was a fuck—a means to an end. With you, sex is only the beginning.”
“Prove it.” I released his hands and quickly shoved his pants over his hips. Jay tossed his head back, moaning as I pushed down his boxer briefs and started jerking him off. “I’ve been averygood boy, Jay. I haven’t complained about you wanting to take things slow. But you can’t tell me you don’t want this just as much as I do.”
“Babe, you know I do.” He rolled to his side, hitching my leg over his. This was familiar. Safe. But with every pass of his thumb through my slit, I lost the ability to be demanding. “You don’t have to be quiet tonight. You can make as much noise as you want.”
He reached up with his free hand, pinching my nipple. Rather than flinching away, my body arched into the touch as I begged him for more. My hand stilled on his dick, unable to focus on what I was supposed to be doing.
“Roll over, baby. I need to get you ready.” I flipped onto my stomach, propping myself up on my knees, head resting on my folded arms. Jay’s thumb dragged through my crease. Without any lube, there was just the right amount of friction to make it slightly painful. He spread my cheeks and I winced. Even though I couldn’t see his face, I couldfeelhis gaze on me. He caressed my hole, a featherlight touch that drove me wild. “Do you know how much I love knowing mine will be the only dick that knows how tight you are. It’s not going to be easy for me to go slow.”
“You don’t have to,” I reminded him before burying my head in the pillows and letting out a frustrated growl. Yes, I was a virgin but that didn’t mean I was fragile. My virginity wasn’t a treasured possession, it was something I’d hung onto because I hadn’t met anyone I could trust enough to deal with all sides of me. “Please, Jay, just do it already.”
At the rate he was going, I was starting to worry the actual sex wouldn’t live up to the hype. I’d been mentally preparing for this day for years. I’d educated myself enough to know it might not feel the best, but that I’d get used to it. I had no grand illusions of choirs singing and the skies opening as I finally felt a dick inside of me.
“I think I like you better when you’re all sweet and cuddly,” Jay teased. He draped his body over mine, kissing his way along my spine. I curled my arm around his when he leaned over to get something that had damned well better be lube off the nightstand. I almost cheered when I heard the snick of the cap opening. “You have to be patient and let me get you ready, Chase. I refuse to hurt you.”
He said it with such tenderness in his voice, it was impossible to be annoyed with him. He loved me, and he was proving it through his actions. That made me feel like a bit of a turd because I’d convinced myself he was holding off on anal sex because he was trying to protect me.
“You won’t, Jay,” I reassured him, lacing our fingers together. “If there’s one thing I’ve learned about you, it’s that you will always take care of me. This is no different.”
“Thank you.” It sounded as if the words got caught in his throat. He massaged my back, repeatedly telling me how amazing I was and how grateful he was that I’d wound up in his room.
I was so focused on soaking in the praise I didn’t realize what was happening behind me. I tensed when I felt a finger at my hole, not entering me, just circling, spreading the slick around. The whole time, Jay kept talking. I closed my eyes and rested my head on my arms again, focused on my breathing, trying to stay relaxed as he pushed in. The pressure of even a single finger was intense, different from when I’d played with myself.
“You good?” He wrapped his free hand around my chest and started teasing my nipples, giving me something other than the pressure in my ass to think about. My mind splintered, trying and failing to focus on the pleasure or the pain.
“Yeah,” I said breathlessly, rocking back slightly, trying to urge him to give me more. He fucked me slowly, every brush of his fingertip over my prostate sending a jolt through me. My dick throbbed, my balls pulled up tight, and I was seconds away from coming. I swatted his hand away from my chest. “I…please, Jay…need a break.”
When he tried to pull his hand away from my ass, I reached back, curling my fingers around his wrist. “No, stay. Please.” I wasn’t ready to feel the emptiness. But I knew myself. If I came, I’d be ready to pass out, and there was no way I was coming before I felt his dick in my ass. I wasnotsleeping another night with my virginity.
“Whatever you need,” he promised me. “But I’m going to need that hand back at some point so I can suit up.”
“You don’t need to,” I told him. It was possibly the stupidest thought I’d ever had, but I didn’t want that layer of latex between us. I wanted to feelhiminside of me. I wanted to feel his cum dripping out of my ass when he eventually pulled out. I wanted all of it.
“Yes, I do,” he countered. “I love you, Chase, but that’s non-negotiable. You can’t spring shit like that on me when we’re both turned on and ready to fuck. Tonight, it’s a rubber or nothing. Later, we can talk about it.”
“Okay.” I felt my throat tightening and clenched my eyes closed. I wasnotgoing to cry like a damn baby just because he wouldn’t fuck me bare. That was dumb. He still had his shit together enough to protect me, even when I wanted him to be reckless. “Thank you, Jay.”
“You never have to thank me for that,” he said, even though I hadn’t told him why I was so grateful. I whimpered when he pulled out. “Let me take care of this and then I’ll take care of you.”
