I’ll do it whether it’s fake, or real, on camera, or not.
All I had to do was admit how much I fucking needed it.
When I comefor Niko it’s like my world splits open and suddenly, everything is new.
So tight around me.
Tighter and warmer than anything I’ve ever felt.
He grips the back of my neck and his fingers push against my ass as I come, spilling a string of curses as I lose control.
It was his goddamn lips against my neck.
It happens too fast.
Fartoo fast.
And the moment it’s over I’m already craving a next time, and a next time, and a time after that.
Addicted from the first goddamn moment I felt an inch of my cock push past the tight ring of his hole.
I’d never been so physically close to anyone, but I’d also never felt so intimate, either.
It’s a strange thing.
Niko Berlant usually feels like a distant creature, to me, like there’s always some portion of him that will remain a shadowy mystery to me.
But for that brief time, we werecompletelytogether.
In unison, like our bodies became more than two separate things.
We’ve never kissed, even though we’ve gone much further than kissing. When I felt his mouth against my neck, it was so sensitive I couldn’t stop myself from coming.
If that’s how good his mouth feels on my skin…
I can’t even let myself think about what kissing Niko might be like right now.
I lean backward in bed and look down at him, his dragonfly necklace snaking down, the metal pressed against his chest.
I slowly slide out of him, feeling like I’m floating on a cloud. Watching my own cum spill out of him is obscene, and the image of it is so hot that I know I’ll be making myself come to the thought of it later.
Suddenly I remember the camera’s still recording, and an urge overtakes me.
I grab it and hold it in front of me, focusing on Niko’s ass and his cock, still hard and so goddamn perfect resting against his lower abdomen.
“Fuck. Stay right there,” he utters, wrapping his hand around himself.
And I watch as he starts to stroke himself again.
“You look disgustingly good,” I tell him.
His lashes flick down, then up again. “Next time I come, it’s going to be in your ass.”
“Do it right now. Think I can’t take it?”
He moans, a small smile coming over his lips. “Nope. I’m going to make you wait for that. You’re getting a different kind of gift right now.”
I don’t know what he means by that, but suddenly I have that surreal feeling again like I’m watching one of his videos yet it’s right here in front of me.
