But he didn’t give her a chance to apologize. That wasn’t the reason why he was telling her this story, he realized.
“When I was fourteen, I’d had enough and started to fight back. I wasn’t much of a fighter, but I was angry, so goddamn angry all the time that my temper soon became unpredictable. One day, they pushed me too far and I snapped, really snapped. I lost it in the middle of class and threw a desk through a window.”
“What happened next?”
The headmaster had beaten him within an inch of his life, but he wasn’t going to tell his wife that. So instead, he told her the only part that mattered to him. “I was given a choice by my instructor, fix the desk or pack my bags. I actually packed my bags and was ready to leave when I found the parting gift the other boys had placed in my bag.”
“What was it?” Elizabeth asked, her voice barely above a whisper.
“A lemon,” Robert simply said, remembering the rage that he’d damn near gave into the moment that he’d found the fruit stuffed in his bag.
He’d wanted to tear the school apart, to beat the hell out of every boy that had taunted him, to make their lives a living hell the way they had made his, but he couldn’t do that if he let them win, he’d realized.
“I decided not to let them win. I wasn’t going to let them push me out because I’d realized that James was right. Every morning before class and every evening after class, I walked down to the village and worked with John, who was the town carpenter, to fix the desk that I’d destroyed. When it became obvious that the desk was beyond repair, he’d taught me how to make one from scratch.”
“I didn’t think that I’d enjoy it, but I did. I loved it. Long after the desk was done, I kept showing up and he never told me to leave. It kept me focused and probably kept me out of trouble. I still got into fights, but not as many and whenever John heard that I’d been in a fight, he worked me until I could barely walk back to school. He helped keep me in line and gave me something to look forward to each day.”
“It sounds like he was a good man,” Elizabeth said around a small sniffle.
“He was,” Robert agreed, pressing a kiss to the top of her head.
He held her in his arms for a long time. When the fire started to die out and she hadn’t said anything, Robert realized that she must have fallen asleep in his arms. Carefully, he adjusted her in his arms and picked her up. He carried her to the bed and gently laid her down. Before he could manage to stand up, she grabbed his hand and gave it a gentle tug.
Not one to argue with his wife, Robert climbed into bed and curled up behind her when she shifted onto her side. He wrapped his arm around her and pulled her tightly against him.
“I’m sorry, Robert, for what I did to you,” Elizabeth said, taking him by surprise as she said the words that he’d been waiting half his life to hear. But instead of yelling at her or rubbing her apology in her face like he’d always imagined that he would do at this moment, he pressed a kiss to the back of her neck and said the words that would set them both free.
“I’m sorry too, minx.”
Chapter 31
Boston Harbor
7 Weeks later…
“Ah, Robert?”
“Shhhh, not while I’m praying,” Robert said, momentarily losing his place before he started again, “thank you for letting us survive that trip from hell. Thank you for ignoring my prayers for a quick death when I didn’t think that I’d be able to survive another day of starvation,” he said, making her roll her eyes.
“You were given three full meals a day just like everyone else,” Elizabeth pointed out, not bothering to mention the fact that on most days, he’d received second helpings. She sat down on a bench near their luggage, wondering just how much longer he was going to keep this up.
“I’m sorry for all the cursing that my wife forced me to do while I was on that boat,” he continued, ignoring her even as he amused her. “As you know, she’s been such a bad influence on me. Thank you for pulling me from near-death and somehow giving me the strength to survive.”
“Near-death?” Elizabeth asked, frowning. “When were you near-death?”
“When was I near death?” Robert asked in stunned disbelief as he opened his eyes so that he could glare at her. “How could you forget all those times that I could barely move? When I struggled to find the will to live so that I wouldn’t leave you a young widow? Did my struggle for survival mean nothing to you?” he demanded in outrage, terrifying the people that were forced to walk past him to get to the docks and making her wrack her brain as she struggled to figure out what he was talking about.
“Do you mean those few times when you had a touch of seasickness?” Elizabeth asked, unable to think of anything else that he could be talking about since he’d been the picture of health during the majority of the trip.
“A touch?” Robert repeated in disbelief. “I nearly died!”
“Because you were forced to miss breakfast a few times?” Elizabeth asked, trying her best not to laugh or smile, but he looked so adorable just then that she admittedly didn’t put up much of a fight.
“It was hell! Pure hell!” Robert snapped, shocking several of the women trying to rush past him.
“Try having seasickness every morning and night,” Elizabeth said dryly as she stood up and gestured for several dockworkers to help them with their luggage.
“That makes my ordeal worse!” Robert said, coming to his feet so that he could offer her his arm. “I needed my strength so that I could tend to you and keep you alive.”
