The tears gushed from Linton’s eyes as he answered—
‘Yes, yes, I am!’
And, still under the spell of the imaginary voice, his gaze wandered up and down to detect its owner.
Cathy rose.
‘For to-day we must part,’ she said. ‘And I won’t conceal that I have been sadly disappointed with our meeting, though I’ll mention it to nobody but you—not that I stand in awe of Mr Heathcliff!’
‘Hush,’ murmured Linton; ‘for God’s sake, hush! He’s coming.’ And he clung to Catherine’s arm, striving to detain her; but, at that announcement, she hastily disengaged herself, and whistled to Minny, who obeyed her like a dog.
‘I’ll be here next Thursday,’ she cried, springing to the saddle. ‘Goodbye. Quick, Ellen!’
And so we left him, scarcely conscious of our departure, so absorbed was he in anticipating his father’s approach.
Before we reached home, Catherine’s displeasure softened into a perplexed sensation of pity and regret, largely blended with vague, uneasy doubts about Linton’s actual circumstances, physical and social; in which I partook, though I counselled her not to say much, for a second journey would make us better judges.
My master requested an account of our ongoings: his nephew’s offering of thanks was duly delivered, Miss Cathy gently touching on the rest: I also threw little light on his inquiries, for I hardly knew what to hide, and what to reveal.
Chapter XIII
Seven days glided away, every one marking its course by the henceforth rapid alteration of Edgar Linton’s state. The havoc that months had previously wrought, was now emulated by the inroads of hours.
Catherine, we would fain have deluded, yet, but her own quick spirit refused to delude her. It divined, in secret, and brooded on the dreadful probability, gradually ripening into certainty.
She had not the heart to mention her ride, when Thursday came round; I mentioned it for her; and obtained permission to order her out of doors; for the library, where her father stopped a short time daily—the brief period he could bear to sit up—and his chamber, had become her whole world. She grudged each moment that did not find her bending over his pillow, or seated by his side. Her countenance grew wan with watching and sorrow, and my master gladly dismissed her to what he flattered himself would be a happy change of scene and society, drawing comfort from the hope that she would not now be left entirely alone after his death.
He had a fixed idea, I guessed by several observations he let fall, that as his nephew resembled him in person, he would resemble him in mind; for Linton’s letters bore few, or no indications of his defective character. And I through pardonable weakness refrained from correcting the error; asking myself what good there would be in disturbing his last moments with information that he had neither power nor opportunity to turn to account.
We deferred our excursion till the afternoon; a golden afternoon of August—every breath from the hills so full of life, that it seemed whoever respired it, though dying, might revive.
Catherine’s face was just like the landscape—shadows and sunshine flitting over it, in rapid succession; but the shadows rested longer and the sunshine was more transient, and her poor little heart reproached itself for even that passing forgetfulness of its cares.
We discerned Linton watching at the same spot he had selected before. My young mistress alighted, and told me that as she was resolved to stay a very little while, I had better hold the pony and remain on horseback; but I dissented, I wouldn’t risk losing sight of the charge committed to me a minute; so we climbed the slope of heath, together.
Master Heathcliff received us with greater animation on this occasion; not the animation of high spirits though, nor yet of joy; it looked more like fear.
‘It is late!’ he said, speaking short, and with difficulty. ‘Is not your father very ill? I thought you wouldn’t come.’
‘Whywon’t you be candid?’ cried Catherine, swallowing her greeting. ‘Why cannot you say at once, you don’t want me? It is strange, Linton, that for the second time you have brought me here on purpose, apparently, to distress us both, and for no reason besides!’
Linton shivered, and glanced at her, half supplicating, half ashamed, but his cousin’s patience was not sufficient to endure this enigmatical behaviour.
‘My fatherisvery ill,’ she said, ‘and why am I called from his bedside—why didn’t you send to absolve me from my promise, when you wished I wouldn’t keep it? Come! I desire an explanation—playing and trifling are completely banished out of my mind: and I can’t dance attendance on your affectations, now!’
‘My affectations!’ he murmured, ‘what are they? For Heaven’s sake, Catherine, don’t look so angry! Despise me as much as you please; I am a worthless, cowardly wretch—I can’t be scornedenough! but I’m too mean for your anger—hate my father, and spare me, for contempt!’
‘Nonsense!’ cried Catherine in a passion. ‘Foolish, silly boy! And there! he trembles, as if I were really going to touch him! You needn’t bespeak contempt, Linton; anybody will have it spontaneously, at your service. Get off! I shall return home—it is folly dragging you from the hearth-stone, and pretending—what do we pretend? Let go my frock—if I pitied you for crying, and looking so very frightened, you should spurn such pity! Ellen, tell him how disgraceful this conduct is. Rise, and don’t degrade yourself into an abject reptile—don’t.’
With streaming face and an expression of agony, Linton had thrown his nerveless frame along the ground; he seemed convulsed with exquisite terror.
‘Oh!’ he sobbed, ‘I cannot bear it! Catherine, Catherine, I’m a traitor too, and I dare not tell you! But leave me and I shall be killed!DearCatherine, my life is in your hands; and you have said you loved me—and if you did, it wouldn’t harm you. You’ll not go, then? kind, sweet, good Catherine! And perhaps youwillconsent—and he’ll let me die with you!’
My young lady, on witnessing his intense anguish, stooped to raise him. The old feeling of indulgent tenderness overcame her vexation, and she grew thoroughly moved and alarmed.
‘Consent to what?’ she asked. ‘To stay? Tell me the meaning of this strange talk, and I will. You contradict your own words, and distract me! Be calm and frank, and confess at once, all that weighs on your heart. You wouldn’t injure me, Linton, would you? You wouldn’t let any enemy hurt me, if you could prevent it? I’ll believe you are a coward, for yourself, but not a cowardly betrayer of your best friend.’
‘But my father threatened me,’ gasped the boy, clasping his attenuated fingers, ‘and I dread him—I dread him! Idarenot tell!’
