Because, it’s true. I just didn’t realize anyone else was catching on to it.
I suppose if anyone would have noticed, he would. Majorseeseverything.
“Yeah, well we’re both gun shy to show our cards, aren’t we.” I give him a knowing look, because I’m a vault and would never divulge anything he’s shared with me in confidence, but I wish he were more open about his desires so he could actually find happiness with someone, instead of hiding from it.
Me on the other hand, I’m an open book with everything in my life. My sexuality has never been an issue nor a big topic of conversation. All the guys at the station know I’m bisexual so it’s not like it’s a big secret and when people do ask, I say what I’ve always said;I’m attracted to people in general, to the connection, regardless of gender.
There are a few judgmental expressions that quickly get covered up, but in general, most people are more than understanding. However, when you’re attracted to someone of the same gender that isn’t gay or bisexual, well, that can create some awkwardness I’m not willing to risk.
I love this station and the guys I work with, and it’s not worth making anyone uncomfortable.
I hate that I can’t help my attraction to a guy who wants nothing to do with any type of relationship—with any human—much less another man.
Sometimes, a moment will pass between us and I can’t help but think he feels it too.
Then he gets angry and treats me like shit for days on end, until he finally comes back around, just to repeat the same cycle.
But, Wade has a side that not many people see and I get the pleasure of witnessing when the brick wall that surrounds himisn’t fortified like Fort Knox. The few select times he lets it down and opens up to people, he shows a completely different side of himself, and in the rare moments I’ve seen it, my mild crush grows deeper.
He’s showing that side to Abby now and I can’t say a wave of jealousy doesn’t roll over me.
“Alright, ready?” She glances over at us and we both kick ourselves off the wall in synchronized motion like we were just waiting at her beck and call.
Which we pretty much are.
She turns on her heel and walks toward the front of the garage, and I swear all our eyes are frozen on the exact same spot. Her hips sway naturally behind the skin tight leggings that hug the curves of her gorgeous body like a second skin.
Puffing my cheeks I blow out a long breath, needing to calm my currently rising blood pressure.
“Yeah…Yeah, Yep,” echoes on each side of me as both guys agree with me.
“I think I’m going to kiss her,” I announce, watching Abby talk animatedly into her phone, as she makes her way toward us.
“What?” they jinx each other again.
Nothing like lighting a fire under both their asses.
They don’t know that I’ve already kissed her. They don’t need to know that.
But, they do need to know I’m going to make my move, and these two are nothing but competitive.
CHAPTER 7
WELL, THAT WAS AN UNEXPECTED ASSIST
WADE
“Thanks again to everyone who donated to this great cause. Please share any local businesses or nonprofits that I can show some love to so we can continue to support our local community. See you guys soon!” Abby pulls her phone closer to her as she taps the screen with a beaming smile.
God, she’s stunning.
I find myself with a rare smile, that I quickly shed, as she finishes her video with an excited squeal.
“That was great you guys!” She places her palm over my forearm excitedly.
My gaze makes its way to where she’s touching me and I can’t help but shift my stance, because just that little contact has more blood rushing to my groin than I’d care to admit.
She senses my discomfort and pulls away urgently, embarrassed, like I was disgusted by it. Which is the exact opposite of how I feel and want nothing more than to pull her entire body next to mine.
