She skates her fingers along my opening.In response, I spread my legs as far as my body will allow them to go.A wet finger circles my clit and my breath hitches in my throat.But again, Avery doesn’t dillydally.Two fingers slowly slide inside me.
She lies down next to me, her eyes locked on mine.Her fingers move, gently at first, only stealing a fraction of my breath—and my sanity—but they soon pick up speed.When she slows down, it’s only to add another finger—to spread me wider for her.
Avery fucks me and maybe it’s this exact undoing that I crave.This stepping out of myself and leaving a part of me behind in doing so.I don’t know.I don’t know much anymore.All I know is that I want more.
She fucks me a lot slower, a lot more deliberately, until she stops again.Her fingers retreat, leaving a gaping hole of want inside me.
“Can you take all of me?”she asks.
It’s not a question that requires a response.
Avery adds another finger and I don’t need to take all of her to give all of myself to her.I’m filled to the brim with Avery as she barely moves inside me but I feel it everywhere.I feel it in the parts of myself I’ve shut off because they were too painful to live with.I feel it in the depths of my heart that went stoically cold with loss.I feel it in my untouched but roaring clit.I can barely keep my eyes open as the tremor in my muscles start.As an obliterating climax builds and ravages through me.I try to look at her, at this divine creature giving me all this unexpected pleasure.I toss my head back and I clench around Avery’s fingers, as she touches me where I had decided to remain untouched.
Chapter21
Avery
Fuck me.I have never known surrender like this because I’ve never slept with a woman like Nic before.I’m thirty-five years old, but in all my life, sex has never felt like this.There might be many reasons for that, but none of them are of any importance right now.
As gently as I can, I slip my fingers out of her.My clit is clamoring for attention.But it will have to wait.I need to wrap my arms around Nic and tell her—tell her what?
Maybe it’s best if I don’t say anything at all.Because this moment calls for a degree of solemnity—even I can sense that.I swallow any coy remark I could make and just sidle up to her warm body.
“Jesus.Fucking.Christ,” Nic exclaims between breaths.“This is not…” She doesn’t finish her sentence and I don’t urge her to.Instead, I slip an arm beneath her neck and curl the other one around her chest.
We lie in silence for a few minutes while she catches her breath.Until I feel her body shift beneath me.
I push myself up to look at her.Fuck me again.She looks even more beautiful than before.Her face is completely relaxed.Her eyes are a little moist but clear as the sky outside.
“You fight really dirty,” she says, delighting me to my very core.
“Did I win?”I reply.
In response, Nic just shakes her head.Perhaps because we both know there’s no winning the fight I came here for.
“Avery.”She slides on her side and faces me.She strokes my cheek with the back of her hand.“I don’t know what to say.”
“You don’t have to say anything.”
“I can’t explain what it is you do to me,” Nic says, anyway, a hint of desperation in her voice.“It’s like I’m powerless against you.”
I don’t know what to say tothat, so I gently kiss her on the lips.
“Let’s not talk,” Nic says.“Are you into some receiving today?”
“I’m so fucking hot for you.”A grin breaks on my face.I don’t have much experience with it but, for a moment, I wonder if this is what falling in love feels like.This riveting emotion running through you while looking into someone’s eyes.I shake off the thought.I might have come here for a fight, but what exactly I’m fighting for is still undefined.
Nic grins back and I grow a little addicted to that look on her face.“Good,” she says.She kisses my cheek, then meanders to my ear.“You’re fucking spectacular,” she whispers and then, even though it’s utter madness, I know I’m falling in love.“You make me lose my mind.”
I kiss her and maneuver myself on top of her again—because it’s where I want to be.When I break from the kiss I push myself up until I’m sitting with my legs spread across her belly.
“No lube required,” I say, as I take her hand and bring it to the utter wetness between my legs.
The astounded look on her face is even more addictive.
“Fuck me,” I say, making sure my breath doesn’t hitch in my throat—because I get off on it so much.
While Nic’s fingers slide inside me, her other hand finds my breast.I’m so wet and ready and turned on by fucking her like that earlier, her fingers are like pure instruments of pleasure inside me, hitting all the right spots instantly.So much for not being good at receiving.With Nic, I’m very good at a lot of things I usually suck at.Whether I’ll allow myself to is another matter, but I could most certainly fall for her.Why else am I here?
