Is that what Papa thinks? That I am feeling defiant? Rebellious?
“In my youth, I rebelled against the polite world. I made mistakes that nearly cost me everything…that shame me even now. Through that, I learned that my defiance was not hurting anyone but me. I discovered this the hard way, and I don’t want you to repeat my mistakes.”
Seeing the concerned lines etched on her father’s face, knowing that this could not be easy for him to discuss, she felt a surge of love.
She set down her tea and leaned forward. “I promise you I am not trying to deliberately flout convention, Papa.”
It just sort of happens when I follow my heart.
“Then you are wiser than me, poppet.” He studied her. “It took me years to realize that defiance wouldn’t bring me happiness. That took meeting your mama again. Her love and steadfast influence helped me to become the man I am today. One who understands how to channel my inner fire toward a more productive end.”
“You and Mama are a perfect match,” Glory said sincerely.
“What do you think about Matthew Winslow?”
The abrupt question caught her off guard.
“Um…he is nice, I suppose.”
“He is a decent chap with bright prospects. Last night, he had to fend off gentlemen wanting to buy shares in his and Rothwell’s latest venture. And he’s not bad-looking, eh?”
“I guess not,” she mumbled.
“Mama thinks he’s too old for you, and she may be right,” Papa amended. “But it wouldn’t hurt for you to spend time with him and see what you think. He asked me if he could take you for a ride in the park this afternoon.”
“But I have a lesson with Mr. Chen—”
“I have taken the liberty of canceling it for you.”
She bolted upright in her chair. “Papa—”
“I told you about the gossip last night and do not wish for rumors to circulate about you.” Her father looked uncommonly stern. “For now, your lessons with Chen are on hold.”
Now the fire of rebellion did blaze in her heart.
“For how long?” she asked with trembling outrage.
“Until such time that I can be certain that he poses no harm to you or your reputation.”
I love Wei. I want to marry him. Not having him in my life is what would hurt me.
Yet if she told her father now, he clearly would not understand, and she risked causing more friction between him and Wei. He was pushing her toward Mr. Winslow, for heaven’s sake. Frustration knotted her insides.
“Mr. Chen would never hurt me,” she protested. “He is a good, honorable man—”
“If that is true, he will understand why he must stay away for the time being.” Papa’s face softened. “I am trying to protect your reputation, poppet.”
“Mine or yours?”
Seeing the startled hurt that flashed in his eyes, she instantly regretted her words.
“I…I am sorry, Papa.” Shame shortened her breath. “I didn’t mean it.”
“You would be within your rights if you did.” His sigh was heavy. “My campaigning has taken its toll on you and the family. If the work were not so important, if it did not have such an impact on innocent lives—”
“Please, you needn’t explain.” She felt worse than ever. “I am so proud of your fight against the opium trade and support your endeavors wholeheartedly.”
“You are a good girl, Glory. A far better daughter than I deserve,” he said quietly. “You’ve never complained, but I know that the circumstances of your birth haven’t made things easy for you in Society. And I am to blame.”
