Perhaps that was where Alexei was taking me. He liked things clean and tidy.
Except blowjobs.
And sex.
Don’t think about sex.
Alexei led me downstairs and to the kitchen I’d never been in.
It was very Cam.
It waswarm.
Alexei opened the fridge and pointed at the contents. “He will need to eat, and I am a terrible cook.”
I couldn’t imagine Alexei being terrible at anything, except maybe being nice to people he didn’t like. I wasn’t good at that either.
Cam is. It was why Cracker had survived so long.
WhyAlexeihad killed him instead.
“Saint. Come on now. You do not have to talk, but at least look in this food dungeon and tell me you know what to do.”
Food dungeon?I joined Alexei at the fridge and peered not inside, but at him. “You’re not hungry?”
“I could eat.”
“That’s not the same.”
“Clearly.”
He sounded annoyed, but it was hard to tell if it was with me and my fat tongue, or with himself for not knowing what to do with the farmers market Cam kept in his fridge.
It was hard to tell anything about Alexei, and as twisted as it was, I liked that about him. He made me think. Made me look deeper at just about everything.
Whether he knew it or not, he made me stronger.
Was it wrong that I thought he was cute?
Maybe. This dude was a stone-cold killer. A hitman for the Russian mob. Wanting to pinch his cheeks and make him smile was fucking weird.
“I can make omelettes.” I pointed at the eggs. “With green shit. He always wants the green shit.”
“For himself or for you?”
“You really do know him, don’t you?”
Alexei fished spinach and mushrooms from the fridge, leaving me to grab the eggs. “I am trying, and it is not so hard. He is open to those he wants to be. It is you that puzzles me.”
I opened my mouth to ask him why, but nothing came out. An imaginary brick blocked my throat and the words scrambled in my head.
Alexei’s stare turned owlish. “Do you have your phone?”
The question seemed off topic. I frowned and patted my pockets. Somehow, it was still stuffed in my jeans.
I held it up.
He jabbed a finger at the blank screen. “If you want to talk and you can’t.”
