A tear falls on his cheek and I wipe it off. His vulnerability makes me tender, and I hug him.
“Please don't go, what I feel when I'm with you scares the hell out of me. But it is as if I have come back to life." I nod and he kisses me.
Chapter4
Matthew
Her lips are a constant temptation. I've never been so open to anyone, and I've never told anyone but Gabe, about Amber. But with her it felt right, I had to do it.
"Baby ..." I murmur against her lips, I'm afraid of losing her. I'm afraid she will run away. Run away from me and my demons.
"I'm not going anywhere, Matt," she assures, and her smile lights up the room. I smile too and take her in my arms. God she's so perfect!
"It’s better to finish cooking, would you like to see a movie later?"
“I'll set up, then. Yes, it sounds good. No mushy stuff please! I love reading them, but romantic films make me sick," I giggle shaking my head, the only woman who doesn't like romantic films.
"Thank God! It's your night, choose whatever you want,” I say, giving her the remote control.
"What an honor!" she says as her phone rings. "Sorry I have to answer," she apologizes, answering the phone. I go back to cooking while I watch her set the table while talking on the phone.
“Yes, Louis, I'll be there. I'm here in LA and I don't have any trips planned for next week. I told you this morning. “I see her roll her eyes and smile at me. “Friday night, do you have any commitments? Would you come with me to the awards, please?" I nod and seeing her smile makes my heart beat.
“Yes, Louis, no I won't be alone. I'll need two invitations. Perfect, thanks,” she says ending the call and putting the cell phone in her bag.
"At the awards?" I ask, raising an eyebrow.
"Usually Jack goes there but he goes to Hawaii with Lilly, his girlfriend, so this year it's my turn. It will be a boring evening as usual, but I have to be there."
"Are you sure you want to be seen with me?" I ask her as she steals my spoon and tastes the vegetables. She turns, staring at me.
“Matthew, it won't be an official outing if you don't want to. We can go as friends. The press doesn't need gasoline to talk about me, or about us."
"Would it bother you if they call us a couple?"
"No, are you kidding? Why should it? they would be happy to have something to talk about me. I try to avoid the paparazzi and my press agent tries to keep them away."
"And you?"
"I what?"
"I don't want to hide us from the world."
"I did not mean that. Would you be ready for the vultures? Always have the paparazzi on us Dig into your past?"
“I don't care about them but only about you. I know it sounds absurd, baby, but you're the one I've always hoped to find."
"You barely know me, Matt."
"Yet you cannot deny that every time I touch you, your body shivers.” I touch her neck, losing myself in her wonderful eyes. “That every kiss consumes your soul and your heart beats madly."
"No, I don't deny it, Matt."
“So will you give me a chance to see where this all leads us? To really live you without hiding, without the fear that someone might see us. To love you in the sunlight." I caress her neck and she licks her lips, I can already see the gears of her brain working and pondering the risks.
"Okay ..." she says and my lips crash into hers in a kiss that is pure passion. The blood is rumbling in my ears until my head is spinning. We are out of breath, and she smiles, smiles at me.
"Be ready for the storm to come!"
