“I... I….”he begins to stammer“I'm sorry, I thought I had satisfied all your requests.”The poor fellow was really mortified.
Max and I look at each other and burst out laughing.“Michael, we are joking. You made this place an authentic masterpiece. We can't be happier with your work. “
“For God's sake you made me have a heart attack,”he sighs laughing.
Nellie and Angel are really happy with their rooms even though I have that feeling that Nellie will change rooms soon.
We have now settled in the new house. I still have to get used to having security and servants at home. It makes me feel strange to have people cleaning and cooking for us, even if Carmen often lets me help her cook.
November 2006
I go to the nursery and sit in the armchair, stroking my baby bump. I have now entered the 5th month and it becomes a little more tiring to stand all day.
I miss Logan and even if he tries to call or text whenever he can, it's not the same thing.
I am missing more and more that little piece of paradise that I lived with him. There is still one month to go, 30 days that will seem very long. But I absolutely must not get depressed. I am surrounded by the love of my family and I am waiting for two little treasures. Who knows if they will look more like Logan or me? I smile at the idea. I feel the tears drop and sigh.
“You really miss him so much, don’t you?”Nellie tells me, hugging me.
“So, so much, you have no idea. And I know I shouldn't complain because I hear from him often. But sometimes it just seems like a dream to me. And I'm afraid to wake up. We're going at the speed of light Nellie, it looks so perfect. Everything’s too perfect. I'm starting to be afraid it's just an illusion,”I vent. I finally said it out loud.
“I can only imagine, Kate. I've known Logan for almost 12 years and never, ever, has he told me about a possible woman or relationship in his life. You can imagine how surprised I was when he told me about you. Of you two. After what happened with Angel's mother, I thought he would never trust to bring another woman into his life. After all, the things he discovered later made him suffer a lot. But he got up, continued to work and raise Angel wonderfully. I know that when he returns, he will never resume service. I don't know if he told you that. He told me he wants to live with his family. To love and finally feel loved. And Kate, he deserves it. “
“Yes, he is wonderful. I lost my head for him in a scary way. If only I dare to imagine that something could happen to him, my heart will stop beating. “
“Because you love him, and it is normal that it is so. Be positive, for yourself, for Angel and for the little ones you have conceived. Little is missing Kate, very little. Don't get overwhelmed now. “
“Thanks Nellie, having you as a nanny is a gift, but having you as a sister-in-law is a wonderful thing. Thanks for everything.”
“What can I do, I'm fantastic,”she says laughing and I join her laughter.
“What are we doing for thanksgiving?”I ask her thoughtfully.“In Italy, there is no celebration and this is our first one as a family.”
“Ah, I don't know, there are still 4 days left. Let's see what Carmen offers us. She is the expert. “
“You can bet. I know 5 is Angel's birthday. I've already ordered everything to set up the house. Carmen said she already knows what to prepare and I trust her. About the cake, do we make it or buy it? “
“You should buy it if you want it to be a surprise. She is curious and will find out unfortunately. “
“You are right. I thought I'd take her shopping so you'll have time to prepare everything. And I can take this opportunity to start looking for Christmas presents. If we are lucky, we will be a full house. The first Christmas as a family. “
“Yes, yes, yes, very good.”We give each other a high-five like we just planned conquering the world.
I make a mental note as I go down and to the study. I absolutely have to make a list of the various gifts. With the way my memory is in this period, I would really risk forgetting someone.
I hear Max talking to someone on the phone and knock before entering.
“Kate is coming, I'm done here,”he smiles
“Don't worry I need pen and paper, and I'm going to lay down”I whisper.
“Is everything alright?”
“Yes, yes, just a little tired,”I answer.
I take a pen and paper and go to my room. Once on the bed, I feel like being on a cloud. I write down ideas for gifts and fall asleep.
I hear the phone ring several times but I feel so tired that I don't even have the strength to open my eyes.
