I trail my hand higher, over her collarbone and neck until I’m cupping her jaw. “We’ve already gone too far. We need to talk before we go any further.”
She lets out a huff of air. “If you don’t want me, just say that.”
“I’m real fucking tempted to bring my hand down on that pretty ass of yours and make you pay for saying that bullshit to my face, but like I said, we need to talk first.” I grip her chin lightly between my thumb and forefinger and peck a soft kiss against her lips. “I want you. Don’t you ever doubt.”
She bites down on her bottom lip, eyes heavily lidded.
“Mm. Dirty girl. You like the sound of that.”
She nods.
“Use your words. Tell me what else you like.”
“I don’t know.” There’s the honesty I’ve been craving from the start. If we’re going to do this, she has to be able to open up to me about her needs.
“So, we’ll explore this together then. We can even make a list, if you want.”
Insecurity flashes across her features, and I’m itching to wipe it away. “Really? You want that? This… doesn’t turn you off?”
“Fuck no. This is a goddamn dream come true—a privilege. But we have to communicate, or this won’t work.”
She nods.
“Words, Callie.”
“Ok. Yes. I want you to teach me.”
Fuuuuck. She has no idea the beast she’s unleashed.
“Have you ever had anything inside of you?” I ask. “Toys?”
“No. I’ve always been too afraid to try.”
“Ok. We can work on that. What about oral? Has anybody ever tasted you, Callie baby?” My cock is hard as steel against her soft thigh. We’re not exactly in the best position to be having this conversation. “Have you ever put that pretty little mouth anywhere else?”
Please say no.
“No. Everything I’ve ever done has been with you,” she whispers. “I’ve only ever kissed one other person. She wasn’t interested in teaching me.”
“She’s a goddamn fool.”
There’s something so earnest in her expression, and it makes me want to give her everything she ever wanted and more. “I want to taste you, Jax.”
“Fuck, baby. You can’t say shit like that right now. Not yet.” I adjust our position so she’s not suffocating my dick. “If I ever go too far, you can always tell me to stop. I’ll never push your boundaries without your consent. It’s important that you know that.”
“I trust you.”
Those words mean everything to me. It took a long time to earn them, and I vow right then and there that I’ll do everything in my power to keep earning them.
“Do you want to make a list?”
“No. I just want things to happen naturally. I’m willing to try anything once. If something doesn’t work, we can talk about it.”
“I hope you know what you’re asking for.”
“Do your worst, Cowboy.”
“No. I’ll only ever give you the best, Callie baby.” I press a kiss to the tip of her nose and pull the chunky knit blanket over our bodies. “Rest. You’re gonna need it.”
