She hesitates a moment before she looks me straight in the eyes. She smiles thinly at me. Rose cheeks in tears with her war-ridden face.
Her hand wanders to my cheek, with her thumbwiping away my tears. Calmness spreads through me at the moment of her touch.
“Because I need you to understand that when I leave here today, I let the Lords kill me so you can live. Because my love for you is stronger than all the hate I will ever feel for you.”
17
KAT
PLAYLIST: DON’T LET ME GO – RAIGN
Idon’t know why I even bothered coming here. I should’ve let her in the dark and just walked away.
But I couldn’t.
I had to set it right.
I had to know the truth.
I had to speak what had to be said before I go.
I had to know, she understands.
Understands that I have a reason for all I have done.
But the way she looks at me right now, the horror-struck eyes with the sad shimmer in them, I don’t need that. I don’t need her sympathy. Not her pity. I don’t need anything from her. I have sworn myself to never need anything from anyone. Just as much as I have sworn to never speak of what has happened to me.
And yet, I told her.
Yet, I long for her.
Her.
Her lips, to embrace me.
Her touch, to electrify me.
Her desire, to burn through me.
One last time.
My body acts of its own accord.
I cup her face and pull myself close to her.
Somewhere, far away, I hear a gun drop to the floor, but my focus is nowhere but with her.
Her lips meet mine.
An explosion erupts in my chest as I devour her.
Goosebumps spread all over my body as I close my eyes. For this infinite moment, it’s just me and here, nothing else.
Me and here, as nobodies in nowhere.
Her tongue finds mine; she longs for me as much as I long for her.
Endless moments.
