“When I saw them, I knew. What they were doing wasn’t sin. It was something holy.”
“Avonna,” he stammers. “Where were you? What city?”
I tilt my head. “Pullman. A tiny college town in Washington State.”
Suddenly, it dawns on me. Linus went to college at a place called Wazzu. As someone who didn’t really know what college was, I didn’t realize Wazzu was Washington State.
Until right at this moment. Could it be?
No.
The odds would be impossible.
“How long ago?”
I look up to the ceiling to calculate the time. “A little over nine years.”
“Baby, I think I was one of the boys.” He pulls his fingers out of me. “Liam was the other.”
My whole body goes still. Have our lives been fated for longer than I ever imagined?
Linus doesn’t blink. “You were there for our first kiss. I didn’t give a fuck who saw. Liam had me by the balls.”
“Ohmygod.” All the air leaves my body. “I was barely sixteen.”
“I remember the singer. A hippie chick playin’ Justin Timberlake.” He kisses my hair. “Looked scared as a rabbit.”
I flatten my hand against his chest. His heart is racing under it. “Guilty as charged. Are you as blown away as me right now?”
He nods. The silence and inevitability wraps around us.
“I’m more convinced than before. You should reach out.” I stroke the hair at the base of his neck. “Something tells me, he needs us. He belongs with us.”
If there’s one thing I know about my husband, it’s he doesn’t love lightly. When he gives his heart, it’s for good.
He’sneverstopped loving Liam.
I see it in softness behind his eyes when his name comes up. For all our hopes and dreams about adding a third, part of me felt a tinge of jealousy at the thought of Linus and Liam starting up again.
Until today.
Now I realize, I didn’t see them in the kitchen by chance. I was meant to. Their image etched itself into my body before I knew them or had any understanding of my sexuality. It led me through therapy and taught me how to ask for what I desire.
Two men, and not any men.
Liam. Linus.
Not a fantasy. Our future.
One of them is already mine. Fully. Fiercely. Linus has my heart as much as I have his.
Liam’s still a question, but something in me already knows. If we can get through to him, the moment he opens himself, all of us are going to fall forever.
I want it. For Linus. For me. The life we’ve let ourselves imagine.
I take his hand and bring it back to my pussy. “The three of us could be something real.”
“I think we already are,” he replies, slipping his fingers back inside me.
