I grip her waist and move. The sound of our bodies merging drowns the faint flicker of the fluorescent light above.
Her back arches. She pulls me deeper. I thrust until the shelves shake, until she’s sobbing in short, raw bursts “Ah, yes, right there—fuck, yes—”
When I come it’s like something tearing loose inside. Months of restraint break open. She slumps forward, laughing breathlessly.
“Now that,” she pulls up her pants, “was a bit of madness.”
I pull my jeans up, heart still hammering. Out in the pub, GoreGlam starts their next song, a blistering, screaming noise sounding of absolution.
Karra opens the door, light spills in from the hallway. “Go on, manager man. Make more magic.”
I step out into the crowd again, mind clear.
I know one thing. I’m done with stolen fucks in storage closets.
Casual sex isn’t what I want. I don’t have the detachment.
I’m not built for empty.
My body craves something fuller, something I lost.
I won’t stop until I find it again.
twenty-five
Liam
Three Months Later
Idon’ttellPadraigwhere I’m going.
I’m not ashamed.
He knows about my sordid sex life. I fuck plenty of women. Plenty of men. Alone. In pairs. Not always discreetly.
I haven’t done the one thing I’ve always craved.
One of each.
A cock and a cunt all at once.
God, how I’ve fantasized about it, though. A fever dream I can’t wake from.
Tonight, it all changes. I find them on Obsidian, a private, curated platform. It runs more like a virtual sex club than a dating app. Everyone’s vetted. Background checked. Health records updated. Video verified. No games. No guesswork.
Johan and Marin are looking for bisexual fun. A hot, fit man to take apart. Raw. No strings, no feelings.
Me.
They’re married. Mid-thirties. Profile pic is the two of them. Naked. Confident.
I can’t look away. They’re exactly who I need to pop my cherry.
It’s a goddamn match.
Their house sits above the lake, tucked behind high hedges and slatted cedar.
Marin answers the door barefoot in a black silk robe. It clings to her waist. Her eyes are violet-blue and filled with mischief. She wears her blonde hair coiled on top of her head.
