As she sat down on the side of the porcelain tub, she turned on the faucet to adjust the temperature to her liking.A large sunken tub.One of the reasons she’d bought the place had been because of this very feature.She also loved the large kitchen and master bedroom.
Grabbing her bath oils off the bathroom caddy, she drizzled some into the water then set the bottle down, satisfied with the amount.Standing, she picked up the hot pink bonnet on the sink counter and slipped her long coils into it as she placed it on her head.
Moving back to the tub, she reached down and turned off the water.She swirled a finger in the water to test its heat and was happy with the results, so she stepped in and settled down in it with a groan.She laid her head back against the tub and sighed as the warm water caressed her body.The bathroom filled up with a pleasant steam.She relaxed and let out a happy sigh as she closed her eyes.
Her eyes popped open, so she could reach for the washcloth and settle the white strip of material over her eyes.Once again, she settled back into comfort.Soon, she found herself drifting back to the card and then the object of her desires.
Dima Valdez.
A male with the physique of a damn god.She knew that beneath his t-shirts had to be abs of steel.A six pack she wanted to lick.From what she’d seen of him, he liked tattoos, or so she thought as his arms were covered in full sleeves.It made her wonder if he had tattoos on his chest.Fuck.She wished she could find out.
Wishes.
Wasn’t that what this was all about?Her wishes?She could look at this from the perspective of a doctor.Be able to gather some data and help her patients.
If she went to the famed club that Felipe ran, she’d get her wishes and then some, she was sure.But at what cost?Would she be able to differentiate fantasy from reality?Would she be able to allow a man to touch her and look at her body?
Her thoughts turned to Ricky and the life she’d had with him.He’d been demeaning, humiliating her for her sexual needs but not above using her body.
She could still see herself cowering and Ricky standing over her as his words echoed in her memory.She hated to think about what life was like with him.She could still feel the heat of his hand on her skin and taste the coppery blood in her mouth every time he hit her.But even more painful were the words he spewed.
You’re a frigid little fat bitch.No one wants you!You’re lucky I even look your way!
Taking several deep calming breaths, her heartbeat began to rise from the memories.On the last breath, she thought about Dima.Maybe she could do the fantasy which would allow her to keep her heart safe.She felt so tired.Drained from all the worry, from no sleep.But also, from the possibilities if she could allow herself to believe.There was too much to think about.
I’ll just close my eyes for a little while.
Xolani found herself drifting to sleep as the water and her thoughts lulled her into a restless peace.
Chapter Six
Dream Sex
Dima
“Reality is wrong.Dreams are for real.”
