Kim: I dotoo.
April: Metoo.
While I was messaging with the girls, I got a text fromRussell.
Russell: Hey, Ryan. I’m available anytime if you have a question or want to talk and discuss the possible spanking session. You can call me, or if you feel better about texting, we can do thattoo.
I quickly replied back to Russell saying thanks and that I would let him know if I had questions or wanted to talk about it. I set my phone down and went back to the girls and typed his text to the girls so they could seeit.
Kim: The fact that he offered the spanking session says a lot about how far you’vecome.
Ryan: I’ve talked to Russell about a lot of things, but mostly by email or text. And he’s been reading my nightmare journal. I can’t talk about a lot of itvocally.
April: Makes sense, Ry-Guy.
Kim: It’s safer thatway.
I was in an open mood and decided to open up a little further with Kim and April. I felt like I could talk to them about thisstuff.
Ryan: He’s asked me a lot about my experiences with “it.” Like, he knows when “it” firsthappened.
Why did I say that? I wished there was a way to remove a message. Fuck! Would they even know what I was talking about when I said “it?”
Kim: Russell has taken a lot of time to get to know you, and to know what your history is. You can trust that he’s not going to take you where you can’t go or aren’t ready togo.
April: He’s a smartman.
I laughed out loud andnodded.
Ryan: No shit. Sometimes I wonder if I’m just looking for something, or if he’s really that good. Like, I wonder what his motives are with gaining so much information on mypast.
Kim: His motives are to be the best he can be to help you with your kink explorations. His motives are to know what you need and how he can meetthem.
April: Also, he wants the insight so he knows what to be cautiousof.
Kim: You deserve to feel better. You’ve been carrying around a lot of hurt and there’s not a lot of room for anythingelse
April: It’s not your fault, but you just hadn’t found a way to get rid of all that shit you’ve been carryingaround.
Ryan: It felt good to cry when there’s been physical pain withit.
I thought for a few momentsthough.
Ryan: Do you think he’d suspend the beating sessions until I agree to a spankingsession?
Kim: No, Ry. He won’t play games like that withyou.
I thought I could probably survive a spanking session with Russell. The girls were right; there wasn’t anyone better than Russell. I told them about the other day when Russell cleaned the cum off my chest, stomach and dick. I should feel weird about that, shouldn’tI?
Ryan: I’m wondering if this is starting to go in a differentdirection.
Kim: Do you dislikethat?
April: Or do you likeit?
Ryan: I don’t know. It’s justdifferent.
April: Is it because it’s aguy?
