Chapter Six
Tera
I'm workingmy way down his body and he stops me.Stops me.What the hell?
"Can't do that now. Later," he tells me.
The light bulb goes on. "Oooh."
"Yeah."
"So, can we skip all the major foreplay then?" I ask. "Because I'm so turned on, Xan, I don't really need it. I just want to feel you."
I feel no embarrassment under his scrutiny. There's no room for that here.
Xander nods and crawls up the bed, pulling the blankets back, urging me to lie back and rest my head on the pillow.
"I don't want to hurt you," he whispers, and I hear the double meaning there.
"You won't." Nothing can hurt me as badly as when we were apart.
He reaches over to the nightstand and picks up one of the condoms sitting there. After rolling it on, he settles in next to me. He's as worked up as I am. I can tell. His breathing is heavy, his heart is beating a mile a minute: it's all a mirror of me.
Xander moans when he slants his mouth over mine in a tongue-tangling kiss that has my toes curling. Just a kiss has me getting wetter. His hand slides down my body and he reaches between my legs. His fingers glide over me, dipping into the moisture pooling there.
He looks at me. "You're as wet as I am hard. I have a feeling this first time won't last long."
My eyes widen. "First time?"
He nods. "Oh yeah. Once won't be enough. I don't think it'll ever be enough."
"Then what are you waiting for? Haven't we waited long enough?" I encourage.
"Fucking A we have." He positions himself between my legs and guides his cock to my opening. "Tell me if I do anything that hurts or you don't like, okay?"
I lick my lips, anxious, nervous, and horny as hell. "Okay."
His eyes never leave mine as he slowly pushes inside me. He's gentle and tender and I can tell it's not easy for him to be. Honestly, I don't want him to be. I want to know what all the fuss is about. Carter and I had sex, but I didn't orgasm with him. Not once. I don't think I'm going to have that problem with Xander because we just started and it feels so good I want to cry.
"Xan," I breathe against his lips.
"Yeah?"
"Don't go slow. Not this time. I really,reallywant you."
"God, Tera. I thought knowing you're all hot and horny for me was the biggest fucking turn on ever. Hearing you say you really want me in that needy voice…" He lets out a growl and thrusts into me.
"Yes," I say, trying to be quiet. I think I'm failing because he slams his mouth down on mine and kisses me deeply as he fills me completely. I moan into his mouth and he groans in return.
I want him deeper. I need him deeper. I lift my legs and wrap them around his waist.
"Oh, that's so good," he tells me, his eyes closing. Without warning, his lips wrap around my nipple, and he tugs it gently with his teeth.
"Fuck," I cry, and he chuckles.
"Quiet, baby, or someone's going to hear you."
"I can't help it."
