“Don’t apologize,” I interrupted. “I needed it to be that way. I wouldn’t have been able to handle sweet and gentle. Not then.”
“I’m still sorry for treating you the way I did. It doesn’t excuse my behavior, but I was struggling with a lot and I had no idea the answer to my problems was right in front of me.”
“I just can’t believe this happened. I thought we’d finally found a place where we could be happy together and then Mark goes and fucks it all up,” I blurted.
Kellan jerked the wheel to the side and pulled off the road bringing the truck to a sudden stop. “What in the hell is that supposed to mean, Avery?”
“What?” I asked, completely confused by his reaction.
“What. Do. You. Mean? You don’t think we can be happy together because of Mark?” he demanded.
“I just meant things had finally smoothed out for us and now we have all this bullshit to deal with. I’m sure you don’t want to hang around and watch me go through the loss of Ian, again, as well as the betrayal and hurt Mark caused.”
“I told you I would never ask you to forget him. I meant that. I know you loved him. I know that just because he died, your love for him didn’t. He’s the father of two of your children. He will always be a part of your life. I accepted that the day I realized you were Avery Parker. Regardless of what did or didn’t happen between you and Ian will not change my stance on that. Do I want his picture hanging in our bedroom? No. The kids’ rooms? Sure, he’s their dad. If your wedding anniversary rolls around and you want to spend it in bed with a box of tissues, that’s fine, too. But whatever it is you’re going through, don’t hide it from me.”
I unbuckled my seat belt and launched myself across the truck into his arms. “I love you, Kellan,” I said before I smashed my mouth against his.
His hands threaded through my hair and he returned my kiss with just as much intensity. I didn’t care that we were on the side of the road. I didn’t care that only a few hours ago I’d been covered in the blood of a man I once thought was a friend. I needed him and I couldn’t wait any longer.
Raising my hips, I pushed the yoga pants I was wearing down my legs and kicked them across the truck while I undid his jeans and reached inside. “Avery,” he mumbled against my lips, but I didn’t acknowledge him. Instead, I pointed his hard cock where I needed it and sank down as far as I could go, groaning when I was completely filled with him.
His hands left my hair and firmly gripped my hips. “Fuck, baby. Move,” he rasped against my lips.
Following his command, I began to move, reveling in the pleasure created with each pass of my hips.
Kellan shoved my T-shirt and bra up to bare my breasts, but I froze when he took one nipple into his mouth. I was breastfeeding and any kind of nipple stimulation was going to have my milk dripping all over us.
He landed a sharp, stinging slap to my ass followed by, “Don’t stop.”
“But I—”
“Ride my fucking cock, Avery, while I suck on your sweet tits,” he growled and squeezed my ass.
When I still didn’t move, he looked up and his eyes softened. “Your body is providing nourishment and immunity for our child. Everything about it is amazing to me. Now, let me enjoy it.”
Without giving me a chance to argue, he went back to sucking on my nipple and used his grip on my hips to guide my movements until I forgot about my insecurities and got lost in him.
He switched to my other nipple and sucked hard. “Fuck, baby, you gotta come. I’m not going to last much longer.”
“I don’t want to. It feels so good,” I moaned.
I felt him grin against my skin. “Yes, you do, bad girl. You want me to spank that ass again?” he rumbled and slapped each cheek. “Fucking come, Avery. Squeeze my cock with that tight pussy.”
And that did it. The tension coiling suddenly released and pleasure exploded from within. “Yes, yes, yes,” I chanted.
“Fuck,” Kellan groaned and slammed my hips down while he thrust into me several times before stilling.
I collapsed against his chest, sweaty and gasping for breath but completely sated.
“You okay?” he asked.
“Yeah. Are you? Did I hurt you?”
His big body shook when he laughed. “No, but I wouldn’t have given a shit if you did. That was worth it.”
We held each other in silence for a few more minutes before I started to climb off of him. And that’s when I realized what we did, or didn’t do. “Shit,” I cursed at the sticky mess between my legs. “We didn’t use a condom.”
“Were we supposed to?” he asked.
