These last few nights have been amazing. Candi is the one person I'm excited to see at school in the morning, and she's the last person I talk to before I go to bed. I feel like I can tell her absolutely everything.
“Listen, I know it's not a real date… but knowing you're there for me… I don't know. It would just mean so much…” I rehearse my words like she's in my room with me.Maybe if I keep practicing, I won't feel so damn anxious when I ask her. You can do this. It's just Candi.
That's exactly it. It's Candi Hart. The girl I've been crushing on for four years.The girl I think I'm falling harder for every day.As much as I try to convince myself it's not a huge deal, I have no idea what I would do if she saidno.
“It's just a show. I mean, it's not like I'd be asking her on a real date…” My words are supposed to be encouraging, but they make me sound so fucking desperate. Sure, it isn't a real date, butdamnit would be cool if she were there.
Like a hawk, I peer up at the digital clock on my monitor as I stuff my bass in its case.It's nine, she should be online any minute.As if by routine, the red notification pops up next to the messaging icon.Okay, Andy. You can do this. The worst she can say is no, but that would suck.
Why is my heart beating so damn fast?
XoXo:Candi:XoXo:
How was your night?? Did you miss me?
Misfit_Bassist:
Always…
Always? What the fuck is wrong with me?
XoXo:Candi:XoXo:
You always miss me?
Way to go, Andrew. How the hell am I supposed to answer this? Would my honest answer make me look like a loser? Fuck it…
Misfit_Bassist:
Candi, I never stop thinking about you. You're like a song that plays in my head on repeat.
XoXo:Candi:XoXo:
Wow, Andy…
Shit. I said too much.
XoXo:Candi:XoXo:
I think about you a lot, too.
Really?
Misfit_Bassist:
Really?!
XoXo:Candi:XoXo:
Yeah…
Now’s your chance. Ask her!
Misfit_Bassist:
So… uh… I was wondering if you'd like to come to my show next weekend… I know it's not a real date, but maybe you and I could do something afterwards…just you and me…?
Okay, I did it. She's going to say yes. She has to say yes… please say yes.
