“Good, beautiful.Just relax.”I pressed my lips against the top of her head and stroked her hair, content to have her drift off in my arms.
“But we’re not done.”Pulling out of my grip, she sat up and turned to face me.“You didn’t come.”
That was the understatement of the century.Between her squirming and the glimpses of her gorgeous skin flushed pink from my ministrations, it would be a miracle if I didn’t go off in my pants like a horny teenager.
“That’s not what this was about.It’s okay,” I added, smoothing the wrinkle in the center of her forehead with my thumb.
“No, it’s not.”
She let the blanket fall open but I didn’t think it was some kind of attempt at a power grab.She seemed too focused on my response to realize she’d offered me a glimpse at her breasts topped with nipples I couldn’t wait to get my mouth on again.I reached out to touch a finger to the pebbled tip, and she sucked in a breath, glancing down at my hand and confirming my assumption.
“I want you to come too.”
Fuck, the woman was going to kill me.My best-laid plans were no match for the determination burning in her eyes.I was already well acquainted with her tenacity.
“I will.Just not right now.We took big steps today.Bigger than I intended.I want a chance to do it all again and so much more.”I met and held her gaze, willing her to hear the truth in my words.“You’re not ready for me to fuck you.Don’t worry, we’ll get there.”
I recognized my mistake the instant the words left my mouth.It was like waving a red cape in front of a bullfighter.I braced myself for the fight I knew was sure to follow, but instead of attacking, she rolled her eyes.
“Oh please.I’m not ready for you to fuck me?”She cut her eyes in my direction, and I made a calculated decision to wait her out.
There was nothing I could think of to say that would make the situation any better and lots of things that could add to the current clusterfuck.
“Fine,” she said, letting the blanket fall from her shoulders and baring her body to me.“No cock-in-pussy sex today.There are other ways to make you come.”
“Such a filthy mouth.”The crude language from someone who spent so much time in her head had an extra punch, and I clenched my fists to keep from hauling her over to straddle my lap.
“That’s what I said.”She scooted to the edge of the sofa and slid to her knees in front of me, reaching for my belt.
If I was going to stop her, I had to move now.We were screaming past the point of no return.Once she got her mouth on me, I was done.I gripped the hand working at my zipper.
“Stop thinking so loud, Counselor.You’re going to give us both headaches.”She paused in her attempts to open my fly and looked up at me, her dark eyes clear and warm.“Please, Erik.I want to do this.I need it.”
There was a better than average chance I’d never be able to deny this woman anything.She always seemed to find a way around my limits, regardless of where I set them.
“Fine.It’s a hardship, but if you insist,” I said, releasing her hand.
She bit me through the fabric of my slacks, sinking her sharp teeth into my inner thigh.I hissed in a breath, and she blinked up at me, innocence personified, if innocence was a sex kitten with a wicked mouth and even wickeder mind.
“I forgot.It’s important for the subject to be fully aroused in order for the pain to be experienced as something to move toward, right?”
“Brat.”I opened my mouth to say something else but before I got the words out, her hand slid under the elastic of my boxer briefs.She wrapped her fingers around my still hard cock, sending the last of my blood flow away from my brain.
“You love me, admit it.”She froze for a second as if she’d just realized what she said.
I had an instant to wonder whether she meant it or whether she was being a smart ass and then she wrapped her gorgeous lips around my cock, and I couldn’t think of anything butget more of her.All of her as close as I could fucking get.
Alex slid down my length, taking me deep in her mouth until her nose bumped against my stomach.Hollowing her cheeks, she pulled back, holding just the head of my cock with her lips.Cupping my balls with her other hand, she repeated the movement, taking me into her wet heat and then sucking hard as she pulled away.I reached for her, grabbing her thick braid and twisting it around my fist as much to keep from choking her with my thrusting as it was to bring her closer.She picked up the rhythm, and I tightened my grip to slow her down.I didn’t want to rush to the end and I was so close; it was a miracle I’d lasted this long.She ran her tongue up my length and I tugged her hair hard enough to make her let out a throaty moan.
“Fuck, beautiful.That feels so good.”I glanced down and caught her watching me, eyes wide, with my cock filling her mouth.No calculation, nothing but pleasure in her gaze.That was all I could take, seeing her on her knees the way I’d imagined a thousand fucking times before.I was done.“Coming.God, I’m gonna come.”
I tugged her ponytail, but instead of pulling back, she dug her fingers into my hips and took me as deep as she could.Straining against the feelings threatening to swamp me, I let go, painting the back of her throat as she swallowed everything I gave her.I couldn’t admit it—I wouldn’t—but with every barrier we broke through together, it was getting harder to deny the truth of her words.Whether she meant them or not.
––––––––
“WHATDIDYOU plan to do with me?Cooking lessons?Soap making?”I said, teasing.
Sarcasm was the last bit of armor I had left.I’d exposed everything else to him.I needed to hold onto some kind of control.Although, I did have a better understanding of what he’d meant when he said the submissive was the one with the power.Surrendering to Erik had managed to be both humbling and liberating at the same time and so powerful.I was going to be working through my feelings about this for a long time.Not the least of which was the way my body responded to really being bound for a change—no quick release, easy out—by someone who knew what the hell he was doing and was strong enough to take care of both of us.The experience left me shaky, more than just physically.It shifted some of my long-held beliefs in a way I wasn’t completely comfortable with.
