I fought the urge to blink.To try to hide.And then my gaze met his and I fell into his whiskey-colored eyes, lost myself in the honest appreciation I saw and the surety that whatever happened, this man wouldn’t let me fall.He was strong enough to hold me when I needed it.
“I don’t know what to do.”I paused, not sure how to explain my feelings.
“It’s okay, sweetheart.I do.”
The certainty in his response washed over me, and I let out a shaky breath.This man.This man was strong enough to master me.I didn’t know if I was strong enough to let go, but I wanted to be.
“I’m going to give you a choice.I wouldn’t normally, but nothing about this is normal for me.”
He reached forward and cupped my cheek, the tenderness made more powerful by the fact that I was naked in front of him.Bared for our mutual pleasure.
“Usually we’d have worked our way up to the flogger.By the time we got there, I’d know exactly what you needed.Since this is our starting point, you can decide whether you want to be bound or whether you trust yourself to be able to hold still.”He searched my face, and I swallowed, but didn’t hide.“Choose, beautiful.”His thumb brushed my bottom lip and my mouth parted in anticipation.
I didn’t have to think about it.It wasn’t even close.Despite the amount of time I spent tied up, I’d never really been bound before.I’d never given over that kind of control to anyone.I wanted to give it to him.
“Bind me.Please.”
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THIS WOMAN PUSHED everyboundary I had.Every time I thought I knew what I was doing, she knocked me sideways.In the beginning, it had been like playing chess, anticipating her reactions and trying to outmaneuver her.And I’d loved it, loved the challenge of trying to figure out how to make her feel or watching her give in to the pleasure.This was so much more.
The more I pushed for her honesty and surrender, the more I had to give of my own.It was as if we were scaling a cliff together, each of us pushing the other on as the ledge narrowed in front of us.Instead of calling uncle, she kept walking closer to the razor slice of the edge, leaving me no choice but to follow or be left behind.No way in hell would I let that happen.I would be the one to hold her when she flew.I’d be the one to keep her safe and pray she didn’t steal my heart in the process.
Taking her hand, I led her over to the fixed ring in the corner of the room.I’d thought about positioning her on the cross but I wanted access to all of her.The ring gave me that.She was noticeably shorter without her heels and her hand felt small and delicate in my much larger one.All of it added to the contrast between us.Rough—soft.Large—small.Naked—clothed.It should have included vulnerable and in control but I had a feeling that would never be the case with Alex.The best I could hope for was both of us vulnerable.
“Arms up, sweetheart.”
She hesitated, and for a moment the uncertainty was etched on her beautiful face.She wanted this—she’d been the one to ask for it—but she was scared too.Of the experience or herself?Both maybe.It didn’t matter.I could take care of her.Iwantedto take care of her.Wrapping my hands around her ribcage, I slid my palms over her skin, skimming the sides of her breasts and pressing higher until she raised her arms.I ran my hands up her arms, urging her hands higher until her palms met above her head and I could cuff her wrists with my hands.
I wanted to touch her everywhere, to run my hands over every inch of her skin and feel her tremble under my fingertips.I’d waited this long; I could wait a few moments more.But just a few.
“Stay still,” I said, holding her gaze as I let go of her wrists and reached for the cable attached to the ring.
Focusing on the task in front of me instead of watching the way her gorgeous breasts moved as she inhaled, I fastened a wide padded Velcro cuff to each wrist and clipped them together to the cable, leaving a bit of slack.
“Still with me?”
She nodded, her lips parted and her eyes wide.
“Good.”I took a few steps away and grabbed a spreader bar and a soft suede flogger from the cabinet.“Feet shoulder width apart.”It was the reason I’d left slack in the line.When I had her completely bound, I wanted her stretched tight and still standing but supported by the cable so she didn’t have to think about anything but the kiss of the leather against her skin.
Keeping her gaze fixed to the leather toy, Alex took a tentative step, spreading her legs a few inches.
“That’s not what I told you,” I said, clicking the bar in my hands a notch wider.I set the flogger to the side and held the bar in front of me.“I’ll keep going until you comply, beautiful.It extends to four feet.”
I tipped my head as if it didn’t matter either way to me.It did.I wanted her submission voluntarily given, not under threat of punishment.Not this time anyway.
I didn’t have to wait long.She widened her stance and I dropped to my knees in front of her, which put her sweet sex in front of my face and re-ordered my priorities.I blew across her bare mound and watched the muscles in her legs tighten as she strained to stay still.
“Don’t you dare move.”I looked up at her from my position between her spread legs and waited for her to nod her agreement.
I fastened the cuffs on the bar to her ankles with a speed that would have done an Indy pit crew proud and then I gripped her hips with my hands and gave in to what I’d been wanting to do since the first moment I held her in my arms.Spreading her labia with my thumbs, I wrapped my lips around her swollen clit and sucked hard.Her legs tensed and her back bowed as if she’d been shocked.I heard the clink and rattle as she pulled against the cable holding her arms.I kept up a steady pulsing pressure, drawing her clit into my mouth and teasing her with the scrape of my teeth against her tender flesh.
“Please.God.Fuck.Erik.Fuck.”
The words fell from her lips in a steady stream as her body tensed and writhed under my hands and mouth.I hadn’t intended to go straight for the orgasm.I’d meant to do a slow buildup, to make her beg for me to take her over the edge.But like every plan I’d made where Alex was concerned, she’d blown right through it.I’d just meant to take a taste but her response to my touch made it impossible for me to stop.Not until I made her come.
Tightening my grip on her hip with one hand becauseIneeded the anchor this time, I slid two fingers through her slick folds and teased her opening.She was so fucking wet.Knowing I was the one who made her body respond was the fucking greatest thing ever.My cock was so hard it ached and each needy little cry made me that much harder.
