Crossing my legs, I look down at the menu. A weight settles in my gut. Those girls will make my life hell. Sure, they won’t beat me up or bully me, but they’ll paint a target on my back and let the other girls take their chunks out of me until there’s nothing left.
“Want me to do something about that?” Jack’s words make me glance at him. His expression is fierce and protective. I look aroundat the others, and they all have similar looks. My heart beats a little quicker at the realization they all would step up for me.
“If you did something, it would only make things worse,” I admit. “As long as they stay on top, I’ll be safe.”
I think.
“I don’t like it.” Luke threads his fingers through mine like he’s never going to let go, and a small part of me doesn’t want him to. “Too much power has gone to their heads.”
“We could take them down a notch.” Eli rubs his fingers over his lips. “Just enough to remind them who’s on top.”
I tense. I can’t help it. The guys can’t protect me every second of every school day. Even I, with my head in a hole, know how powerful those girls are. The retaliation won’t be at the guys. They’ll aim for the weakest link. Me.
“Not today.” Caden strokes his hand down my arm. “Today we should head back to my place. We can decide later if the girls are worth the trouble.”
I release the breath I didn’t realize I was holding and give Caden a smallthank yousmile. He leans down and brushes my hair away from my ear, sending shivers through me.
“I want to play with you, little nympho. So fucking badly.”
When he pulls back, his green eyes have darkened. A pulse of awareness races through me. Last night comes back into my mind. The feel of his cock between my legs. I tighten my legs against the ache building. Fuck it. I’m ready for more.
“You guys ready to order?” The server is in her late twenties, and her eyes flit from guy to guy. Admiration shines in her eyes, and she winks at me when she notices me watching her.
After taking our orders, she leaves. The guys chat about random stuff, some new video games, and I lean my head against Caden’s shoulder. Something settles inside me.
Surprisingly, I’m not nervous about my decision, but I’m not sure how I’m going to pick. Even the who is difficult. Nico would have been my first if he’d stayed. I have no doubt we would have been together. The connection we felt as kids would have developed into more as naturally as a flowerblooms.
But as much as I want him, he still feels new. We’ve done a lot this weekend, but I still don’t know teenage Nico the way I knew elementary school Nico. I want to know him better. Not to mention he might think it means more if I choose him.
Jack is fun and obviously the right size for the job. Though he’s still pretty big. I smile to myself. He’s been kind and caring. He’s not as aggressive as some of the others. Even our first kiss, he let me lead.
I don’t really want to lead with my first time.
Eli makes me feel alive. He’s considerate and he can turn on the charm like no one else. I can’t help but want his aggression, but maybe not for the first. I’m already worried about how it will feel.
If it will hurt. It can, but it doesn’t always. At least that’s what I’ve read.
I want to enjoy my first time. While I may enjoy the way Eli fucks me, maybe even crave it, I don’t want my first time to be rough. A little shiver ripples through me.
The server returns with our food, and Luke lifts my hand and kisses my knuckles. Our eyes meet, and that tension flows between us. That longing and craving for each other. He kisses my knuckles again before releasing my hand to eat.
Luke Foster. The pale horseman. There’s something magnetic about him that keeps drawing me in, even if he’s the most problematic of the group. He’s jealous and possessive, but when he touches me, I crave him. I want him to fuck me.
But he doubts me. He thought I let Tanner touch me. If I let him possess me first, who’s to say he would let the others have me? Claim me as just his? Last night, I was tempted. I could have let him take me.
I want Luke. There’s no denying it. The chemistry between us is intense. But he wants to own me, and giving him that piece of me might make him think he does own me. I can’t give him that leverage, because I’m not sure I’ll be strong enough to deny his claim.
Caden’s leg shifts next to mine. When I look up into his green eyes, he smiles before tearing into a piece of bacon. A breath escapes me as butterflies race through my veins. If Nico had been here, he would have been the one, but now…
Caden cocks an eyebrow, questioning me silently. EverythingCaden’s done has wrapped me closer and closer to him. Even when he’s been an ass. He wants me in his life, and like an insane person, I like him even more for that.
He’s soft and hard, loving and fierce. He pushes me, but then he holds me back. He’s a monster and a teddy bear. And yet, he also has a really huge cock, which is terrifying. But we were made to fit together. My pussy throbs thinking about how he fills my mouth and feels sliding against me.
“Dirty thoughts, little nympho?” he asks in my ear. “Any way I can help with those?”
I search his eyes, making sure this is the right answer.
He was my first kiss. When my car had a flat, he championed me even when they were punishing me. He believed me with Tanner. My refusal to get to know the horsemen made him angry.
